Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
He became diplomatic, and called at Mr. Elliot’s rooms to find things
out. For if Mrs. Elliot was happier than he could ever make her, he
would withdraw, and love her in renunciation. But if he could make
her happier, he would love her in fulfilment. Mr. Elliot admitted him
as a friend of his brother-in-law’s, and felt very broad-minded as he
did so. Robert, however, was a success. The youngish men there found
him interesting, and liked to shock him with tales of naughty London
and naughtier Paris. They spoke of “experience” and “sensations” and
“seeing life,” and when a smile ploughed over his face, concluded
that his prudery was vanquished. He saw that they were much less
vicious than they supposed: one boy had obviously read his sensations
in a book. But he could pardon vice. What he could not pardon was
triviality, and he hoped that no decent woman could pardon it either.
There grew up in him a cold, steady anger against these silly people
who thought it advanced to be shocking, and who described, as something
particularly choice and educational, things that he had understood
and fought against for years. He inquired after Mrs. Elliot, and a
boy tittered. It seemed that she “did not know,” that she lived in a
remote suburb, taking care of a skinny baby. “I shall call some time or
other,” said Robert. “Do,” said Mr. Elliot, smiling. And next time he
saw his wife he congratulated her on her rustic admirer.
She had suffered terribly. She had asked for bread, and had been given
not even a stone. People talk of hungering for the ideal, but there
is another hunger, quite as divine, for facts. She had asked for
facts and had been given “views,” “emotional standpoints,” “attitudes
towards life.” To a woman who believed that facts are beautiful, that
the living world is beautiful beyond the laws of beauty, that manure
is neither gross nor ludicrous, that a fire, not eternal, glows at
the heart of the earth, it was intolerable to be put off with what
the Elliots called “philosophy,” and, if she refused, to be told that
she had no sense of humour. “Marrying into the Elliot family.” It had
sounded so splendid, for she was a penniless child with nothing to
offer, and the Elliots held their heads high. For what reason? What had
they ever done, except say sarcastic things, and limp, and be refined?
Mr. Failing suffered too, but she suffered more, inasmuch as Frederick
was more impossible than Emily. He did not like her, he practically
lived apart, he was not even faithful or polite. These were grave
faults, but they were human ones: she could even imagine them in a man
she loved. What she could never love was a dilettante.
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