Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
But her fly was announced. While he put the wreath in for her, she ran
for a moment upstairs. A few tears had come to her eyes. A scandalous
divorce would have been more bearable than this withdrawal. People
asked, “Why did her husband leave her?” and the answer came, “Oh,
nothing particular; he only couldn’t stand her; she lied and taught him
to lie; she kept him from the work that suited him, from his friends,
from his brother,—in a word, she tried to run him, which a man won’t
pardon.” A few tears; not many. To her, life never showed itself as a
classic drama, in which, by trying to advance our fortunes, we shatter
them. She had turned Stephen out of Wiltshire, and he fell like a
thunderbolt on Sawston and on herself. In trying to gain Mrs. Failing’s
money she had probably lost money which would have been her own. But
irony is a subtle teacher, and she was not the woman to learn from such
lessons as these. Her suffering was more direct. Three men had wronged
her; therefore she hated them, and, if she could, would do them harm.
“These negotiations are quite useless,” she told Herbert when she came
downstairs. “We had much better bide our time. Tell me just about
Stephen Wonham, though.”
He drew her into the study again. “Wonham is or was in Scotland,
learning to farm with connections of the Ansells: I believe the money
is to go towards setting him up. Apparently he is a hard worker. He
also drinks!”
She nodded and smiled. “More than he did?”
“My informant, Mr. Tilliard—oh, I ought not to have mentioned his
name. He is one of the better sort of Rickie’s Cambridge friends, and
has been dreadfully grieved at the collapse, but he does not want to
be mixed up in it. This autumn he was up in the Lowlands, close by,
and very kindly made a few unobtrusive inquiries for me. The man is
becoming an habitual drunkard.”
She smiled again. Stephen had evoked her secret, and she hated him more
for that than for anything else that he had done. The poise of his
shoulders that morning—it was no more—had recalled Gerald.
If only she had not been so tired! He had reminded her of the greatest
thing she had known, and to her cloudy mind this seemed degradation.
She had turned to him as to her lover; with a look, which a man of his
type understood, she had asked for his pity; for one terrible moment
she had desired to be held in his arms. Even Herbert was surprised when
she said, “I’m glad he drinks. I hope he’ll kill himself. A man like
that ought never to have been born.”
“Perhaps the sins of the parents are visited on the children,” said
Herbert, taking her to the carriage. “Yet it is not for us to decide.”
“I feel sure he will be punished. What right has he—” She broke off.
What right had he to our common humanity? It was a hard lesson for
any one to learn. For Agnes it was impossible. Stephen was illicit,
abnormal, worse than a man diseased. Yet she had turned to him: he had
drawn out the truth.
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