Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
“I’ve a notion I won’t.”
“It’d do you no end of good. You’ll get to know people—shepherds,
carters—” He waved his arms vaguely, indicating democracy. “Then
you’ll sing.”
“And then?”
“Plop.”
“Precisely.”
“But I’ll catch you,” promised Stephen. “We shall carry you up the hill
to bed. In the morning you wake, have your row with old Em’ly, she
kicks you out, we meet—we’ll meet at the Rings!” He danced up and down
the carriage. Some one in the next carriage punched at the partition,
and when this happens, all lads with mettle know that they must punch
the partition back.
“Thank you. I’ve a notion I won’t,” said Rickie when the noise had
subsided—subsided for a moment only, for the following conversation
took place to an accompaniment of dust and bangs. “Except as regards
the Rings. We will meet there.”
“Then I’ll get tight by myself.”
“No, you won’t.”
“Yes, I will. I swore to do something special this evening. I feel like
it.”
“In that case, I get out at the next station.” He was laughing, but
quite determined. Stephen had grown too dictatorial of late. The
Ansells spoilt him. “It’s bad enough having you there at all. Having
you there drunk is impossible. I’d sooner not visit my aunt than think,
when I sat with her, that you’re down in the village teaching her
labourers to be as beastly as yourself. Go if you will. But not with
me.”
“Why shouldn’t I have a good time while I’m young, if I don’t harm any
one?” said Stephen defiantly.
“Need we discuss it again? Because you harm yourself.”
“Oh, I can stop myself any minute I choose. I just say ‘I won’t’ to you
or any other fool, and I don’t.”
Rickie knew that the boast was true. He continued, “There is also a
thing called Morality. You may learn in the Bible, and also from the
Greeks, that your body is a temple.”
“So you said in your longest letter.”
“Probably I wrote like a prig, for the reason that I have never been
tempted in this way; but surely it is wrong that your body should
escape you.”
“I don’t follow,” he retorted, punching.
“It isn’t right, even for a little time, to forget that you exist.”
“I suppose you’ve never been tempted to go to sleep?”
Just then the train passed through a coppice in which the grey
undergrowth looked no more alive than firewood. Yet every twig in it
was waiting for the spring. Rickie knew that the analogy was false, but
argument confused him, and he gave up this line of attack also.
“Do be more careful over life. If your body escapes you in one thing,
why not in more? A man will have other temptations.”
“You mean women,” said Stephen quietly, pausing for a moment in this
game. “But that’s absolutely different. That would be harming some one
else.”
“Is that the only thing that keeps you straight?”
“What else should?” And he looked not into Rickie, but past him, with
the wondering eyes of a child. Rickie nodded, and referred himself to
the window.
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