Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
He observed that the country was smoother and more plastic. The woods
had gone, and under a pale-blue sky long contours of earth were
flowing, and merging, rising a little to bear some coronal of beeches,
parting a little to disclose some green valley, where cottages stood
under elms or beside translucent waters. It was Wiltshire at last.
The train had entered the chalk. At last it slackened at a wayside
platform. Without speaking he opened the door.
“What’s that for?”
“To go back.”
Stephen had forgotten the threat. He said that this was not playing the
game.
“Surely!”
“I can’t have you going back.”
“Promise to behave decently then.”
He was seized and pulled away from the door.
“We change at Salisbury,” he remarked. “There is an hour to wait. You
will find me troublesome.”
“It isn’t fair,” exploded Stephen. “It’s a lowdown trick. How can I let
you go back?”
“Promise, then.”
“Oh, yes, yes, yes. Y.M.C.A. But for this occasion only.”
“No, no. For the rest of your holiday.”
“Yes, yes. Very well. I promise.”
“For the rest of your life?”
Somehow it pleased him that Stephen should bang him crossly with his
elbow and say, “No. Get out. You’ve gone too far.” So had the train.
The porter at the end of the wayside platform slammed the door, and
they proceeded toward Salisbury through the slowly modulating downs.
Rickie pretended to read. Over the book he watched his brother’s face,
and wondered how bad temper could be consistent with a mind so radiant.
In spite of his obstinacy and conceit, Stephen was an easy person to
live with. He never fidgeted or nursed hidden grievances, or indulged
in a shoddy pride. Though he spent Rickie’s money as slowly as he
could, he asked for it without apology: “You must put it down against
me,” he would say. In time—it was still very vague—he would rent or
purchase a farm. There is no formula in which we may sum up decent
people. So Ansell had preached, and had of course proceeded to offer a
formula: “They must be serious, they must be truthful.” Serious not in
the sense of glum; but they must be convinced that our life is a state
of some importance, and our earth not a place to beat time on. Of so
much Stephen was convinced: he showed it in his work, in his play, in
his self-respect, and above all—though the fact is hard to face—in his
sacred passion for alcohol. Drink, today, is an unlovely thing. Between
us and the heights of Cithaeron the river of sin now flows. Yet the
cries still call from the mountain, and granted a man has responded to
them, it is better he respond with the candour of the Greek.
“I shall stop at the Thompsons’ now,” said the disappointed reveller.
“Prayers.”
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