Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
Rickie did not press his triumph, but it was a happy moment, partly
because of the triumph, partly because he was sure that his brother
must care for him. Stephen was too selfish to give up any pleasure
without grave reasons. He was certain that he had been right to
disentangle himself from Sawston, and to ignore the threats and tears
that still tempted him to return. Here there was real work for him to
do. Moreover, though he sought no reward, it had come. His health was
better, his brain sound, his life washed clean, not by the waters of
sentiment, but by the efforts of a fellow-man. Stephen was man first,
brother afterwards. Herein lay his brutality and also his virtue. “Look
me in the face. Don’t hang on me clothes that don’t belong—as you did
on your wife, giving her saint’s robes, whereas she was simply a woman
of her own sort, who needed careful watching. Tear up the photographs.
Here am I, and there are you. The rest is cant.” The rest was not cant,
and perhaps Stephen would confess as much in time. But Rickie needed a
tonic, and a man, not a brother, must hold it to his lips.
“I see the old spire,” he called, and then added, “I don’t mind seeing
it again.”
“No one does, as far as I know. People have come from the other side of
the world to see it again.”
“Pious people. But I don’t hold with bishops.” He was young enough to
be uneasy. The cathedral, a fount of superstition, must find no place
in his life. At the age of twenty he had settled things.
“I’ve got my own philosophy,” he once told Ansell, “and I don’t care a
straw about yours.” Ansell’s mirth had annoyed him not a little. And
it was strange that one so settled should feel his heart leap up at
the sight of an old spire. “I regard it as a public building,” he told
Rickie, who agreed. “It’s useful, too, as a landmark.” His attitude
today was defensive. It was part of a subtle change that Rickie had
noted in him since his return from Scotland. His face gave hints of a
new maturity. “You can see the old spire from the Ridgeway,” he said,
suddenly laying a hand on Rickie’s knee, “before rain as clearly as any
telegraph post.”
“How far is the Ridgeway?”
“Seventeen miles.”
“Which direction?”
“North, naturally. North again from that you see Devizes, the vale of
Pewsey, and the other downs. Also towards Bath. It is something of a
view. You ought to get on the Ridgeway.”
“I shouldn’t have time for that.”
“Or Beacon Hill. Or let’s do Stonehenge.”
“If it’s fine, I suggest the Rings.”
“It will be fine.” Then he murmured the names of villages.
“I wish you could live here,” said Rickie kindly. “I believe you love
these particular acres more than the whole world.”
Stephen replied that this was not the case: he was only used to them.
He wished they were driving out, instead of waiting for the Cadchurch
train.
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