Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
Mr. Ansell, a provincial draper of moderate prosperity, ought by
rights to have been classed not with the cow, but with those phenomena
that are not really there. But his son, with pardonable illogicality,
excepted him. He never suspected that his father might be the
subjective product of a diseased imagination. From his earliest years
he had taken him for granted, as a most undeniable and lovable fact.
To be born one thing and grow up another—Ansell had accomplished
this without weakening one of the ties that bound him to his home.
The rooms above the shop still seemed as comfortable, the garden
behind it as gracious, as they had seemed fifteen years before, when
he would sit behind Miss Appleblossom’s central throne, and she, like
some allegorical figure, would send the change and receipted bills
spinning away from her in little boxwood balls. At first the young man
had attributed these happy relations to his own tact. But in time he
perceived that the tact was all on the side of his father. Mr. Ansell
was not merely a man of some education; he had what no education can
bring—the power of detecting what is important. Like many fathers, he
had spared no expense over his boy,—he had borrowed money to start
him at a rapacious and fashionable private school; he had sent him to
tutors; he had sent him to Cambridge. But he knew that all this was
not the important thing. The important thing was freedom. The boy must
use his education as he chose, and if he paid his father back it would
certainly not be in his own coin. So when Stewart said, “At Cambridge,
can I read for the Moral Science Tripos?” Mr. Ansell had only replied,
“This philosophy—do you say that it lies behind everything?”
“Yes, I think so. It tries to discover what is good and true.”
“Then, my boy, you had better read as much of it as you can.”
And a year later: “I’d like to take up this philosophy seriously, but I
don’t feel justified.”
“Why not?”
“Because it brings in no return. I think I’m a great philosopher, but
then all philosophers think that, though they don’t dare to say so.
But, however great I am, I shan’t earn money. Perhaps I shan’t ever be
able to keep myself. I shan’t even get a good social position. You’ve
only to say one word, and I’ll work for the Civil Service. I’m good
enough to get in high.”
Mr. Ansell liked money and social position. But he knew that there is
a more important thing, and replied, “You must take up this philosophy
seriously, I think.”
“Another thing—there are the girls.”
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