Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
Rickie, on whose carpet the matches were being dropped, did not like
to join in the discussion. It was too difficult for him. He could
not even quibble. If he spoke, he should simply make himself a fool.
He preferred to listen, and to watch the tobacco-smoke stealing out
past the window-seat into the tranquil October air. He could see the
court too, and the college cat teasing the college tortoise, and the
kitchen-men with supper-trays upon their heads. Hot food for one—that
must be for the geographical don, who never came in for Hall; cold food
for three, apparently at half-a-crown a head, for some one he did not
know; hot food, _à la carte _—obviously for the ladies haunting the next
staircase; cold food for two, at two shillings—going to Ansell’s rooms
for himself and Ansell, and as it passed under the lamp he saw that it
was meringues again. Then the bedmakers began to arrive, chatting to
each other pleasantly, and he could hear Ansell’s bedmaker say, “Oh
dang!” when she found she had to lay Ansell’s tablecloth; for there was
not a breath stirring. The great elms were motionless, and seemed still
in the glory of midsummer, for the darkness hid the yellow blotches on
their leaves, and their outlines were still rounded against the tender
sky. Those elms were Dryads—so Rickie believed or pretended, and the
line between the two is subtler than we admit. At all events they were
lady trees, and had for generations fooled the college statutes by
their residence in the haunts of youth.
But what about the cow? He returned to her with a start, for this would
never do. He also would try to think the matter out. Was she there or
not? The cow. There or not. He strained his eyes into the night.
Either way it was attractive. If she was there, other cows were there
too. The darkness of Europe was dotted with them, and in the far East
their flanks were shining in the rising sun. Great herds of them stood
browsing in pastures where no man came nor need ever come, or plashed
knee-deep by the brink of impassable rivers. And this, moreover, was
the view of Ansell. Yet Tilliard’s view had a good deal in it. One
might do worse than follow Tilliard, and suppose the cow not to be
there unless oneself was there to see her. A cowless world, then,
stretched round him on every side. Yet he had only to peep into a
field, and, click! it would at once become radiant with bovine life.
Suddenly he realized that this, again, would never do. As usual, he
had missed the whole point, and was overlaying philosophy with gross
and senseless details. For if the cow was not there, the world and the
fields were not there either. And what would Ansell care about sunlit
flanks or impassable streams? Rickie rebuked his own groveling soul,
and turned his eyes away from the night, which had led him to such
absurd conclusions.
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