Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
So he returned, full of pleasant disconnected thoughts. He had had a
rare good time. He liked every one—even that poor little Elliot—and
yet no one mattered. They were all out. On the landing he saw the
housemaid. He felt skittish and irresistible. Should he slip his arm
round her waist? Perhaps better not; she might box his ears. And he
wanted to smoke on the roof before dinner. So he only said, “Please
will you stop the boy blacking my brown boots,” and she with downcast
eyes, answered, “Yes, sir; I will indeed.”
His room was in the pediment. Classical architecture, like all things
in this world that attempt serenity, is bound to have its lapses
into the undignified, and Cadover lapsed hopelessly when it came to
Stephen’s room. It gave him one round window, to see through which
he must lie upon his stomach, one trapdoor opening upon the leads,
three iron girders, three beams, six buttresses, no circling, unless
you count the walls, no walls unless you count the ceiling and in its
embarrassment presented him with the gurgly cistern that supplied the
bath water. Here he lived, absolutely happy, and unaware that Mrs.
Failing had poked him up here on purpose, to prevent him from growing
too bumptious. Here he worked and sang and practised on the ocharoon.
Here, in the crannies, he had constructed shelves and cupboards and
useless little drawers. He had only one picture—the Demeter of
Cnidos—and she hung straight from the roof like a joint of meat. Once
she was in the drawing-room; but Mrs. Failing had got tired of her, and
decreed her removal and this degradation. Now she faced the sunrise;
and when the moon rose its light also fell on her, and trembled,
like light upon the sea. For she was never still, and if the draught
increased she would twist on her string, and would sway and tap upon
the rafters until Stephen woke up and said what he thought of her.
“Want your nose?” he would murmur. “Don’t you wish you may get it” Then
he drew the clothes over his ears, while above him, in the wind and the
darkness, the goddess continued her motions.
Today, as he entered, he trod on the pile of sixpenny reprints.
Leighton had brought them up. He looked at the portraits in their
covers, and began to think that these people were not everything. What
a fate, to look like Colonel Ingersoll, or to marry Mrs. Julia P.
Chunk! The Demeter turned towards him as he bathed, and in the cold
water he sang—
“They aren’t beautiful, they aren’t modest;
I’d just as soon follow an old stone goddess,”—
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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