New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
Whilst he obediently turned his gaze from the sparkle of the arc lights
and the glitter of the shops and streets, his thoughts were preoccupied
by her puzzling manner. She was friendly, of course. Janet was always
that. An equable, agreeable temper was the very essence of her. But
what was this disconcerting aloofness of hers which was cleaving the air
between them! Her generous eyes and her low clear voice were sending
out vibrations that penetrated to his very soul; yet her mind was
stubbornly withholding the confidence which in the old Lorillard days
she had given him without reserve. What did the paradox of her behavior
mean? Was this a new Janet at the opposite pole to the candid,
unaffected Janet of Barr and Lloyd? He supposed that the Claude episode
might furnish the answer. Had it changed her spiritually for the worse
as it had changed her physically for the better?
Well, that episode had certainly changed him, though not precisely in
any way that he could have predicted. Changed him! For one thing it had
opened his eyes to the fact that he had been a good deal of a prig, as
his Outlaw acquaintances were so fond of intimating. He blushed to
recall his _ex cathedra_ pronouncements on the subject of free love.
With what assurance he had asserted that he did not object to free love
as a matter of prejudice but only as a point of expediency. Hypocrite!
The very reverse had been the case. When Janet ran away with Claude,
the Old Adam had risen within him and almost smothered him with
possessive emotion.
Like any common jealous man! To be sure, he had stoutly told himself
that the Claude adventure made no difference in his estimate of Janet’s
worth. Absolutely none. She was, as always, a prize for any man. For
any man? Well, he himself, on the sole ground that his life’s work
might suffer, would not consider himself eligible for the prize. That
was how he had put it. That was where the prig had shown the cloven
hoof.
Still, he could say this for himself. When he had met Janet face to
face again, all these piffling considerations of expediency had
instantly, along with his vulgar prejudices, gone by the board. The
moment he set eyes on her in Paris, he felt himself at one with her as
he had never felt at one with any other human being (save perhaps a
certain long-lost friend of his own sex).
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