"I'm afraid"--all the legal caution in Wilberforce's nature repelled the
suggestion--"that with the best will in the world I couldn't do that.
Brunton is a K.C.--a very important K.C. If, by any chance, he decides
to wait a month or two----But really, Mrs. Cavendish, with all due
deference to your knowledge of human nature, I don't think we need
anticipate any trouble from Brunton. All we have to do--you and I--is to
await events; to minimize the scandal as far as we can; and to watch
over your son's interests until such time as he returns to London."
The solicitor excused himself, rose, and shook hands. "You can rely upon
me, you know," he smiled.
But, once more solitary, Julia Cavendish felt that neither on James
Wilberforce nor on any other lawyer could she place reliance. To
lawyers, matrimony was a contract; to her it was a holy sacrament.
Scandal, unpopularity, she could face; but not her own conscience. And
conscience already made her accessory to the sin of adultery!
All her prejudices against divorce returned fourfold, submerging her
intellect as in slime. After Wilberforce's revelations, the holy
institution of matrimony seemed the unholiest of legal farces.
She rang for Kate and ordered her to bring tea. "I'm at home to nobody,"
said Julia; and all afternoon she sat brooding, love and beliefs at war
in her mind. All afternoon, her mind pictured Ronnie; the happy babydom,
the fine youth, the clean manhood of him. All afternoon her love strove
to acquit him before the tribunal of her beliefs.
And as day waned the romantic in her began to see something splendid in
him, some courage akin to her own.
But in the woman she could, as yet, see no courage. The woman had
sinned, sinned the deadly sin. Her, one could never forgive!
And yet--and yet--how could a mother abandon her son?
Suppose her son married this sinner? Stubbornly her mind tried to
picture Aliette married to Ronnie. Stubbornly conscience repelled the
picture. "She is Aliette Brunton," said Julia's beliefs. "She can never
be Aliette Cavendish."
Then imagination put back the clock of her own years so that she saw
herself thirty again. At thirty one had illusions; one had one's
fastidiousnesses. And Brunton was no husband for a fastidious woman.
Brunton might easily be a man such as Wilberforce had hinted of; an
unfaithful husband against whom his wife possessed no legal remedy. What
then?
"Even then," said Julia's beliefs, "she should have endured--as you,
too, must endure."
"Yet how can you endure?" asked love. "How can you side with a stranger
against your own boy?"
"Soon," answered beliefs, "you must face your God. How splendid if, on
that day, you can declare to Him: 'I, like You, sacrificed my only
son.'"
But love said: "God and Love are one."
And in that one instant of thought Julia Cavendish crossed her mental
Rubicon. Formal religion went by the board. Be he saint or sinner,
sordid or splendid, she, Julia Cavendish, would stick by her boy.
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