And even if her days had been dull, the evenings would have made their
dullness worth while. Those evenings! Their one servant abed. She and
her man alone together, isolated high above London--solitary--safe--not
even the telephone to connect them with their kind: Ronnie, pipe between
his lips, his face tired yet happy in the glow of the fire, his long
limbs outstretched, his lips moving rarely to speech; Aliette, some
unread novel on her lap, the light of the reading-lamp a-shimmer on her
dimpled shoulders, on the vivid of her hair and the vivid of her eyes;
Aliette, pleasantly wearied of body, pleasantly vacuous of thought,
speaking rarely as her mate, utterly happy in his silent company, so
happy that all the terrors of her past life with Hector seemed like a
nightmare dreamed long since in girlhood and remembered in maturity only
as foolishness.
Nevertheless, as London March blew chilly toward London April, Aliette
again grew fearful. Try as she would to elude them, moments came when
she craved so desperately for maternity that Ronnie's very passion
seemed a reproach. And in those moments her imagination fashioned itself
children--a boy-child and a girl-child--Dennis and Etta--dream-babies
who would bind her man to her forever and forever.
Ronnie, too, had his moments of fear, of hope, of dreamery. But for the
most part they were a silent couple; and only once did either give voice
to their secret thoughts. Then it was Ronnie, who said with one of his
whimsical smiles:
"You've no idea, Alie, what an orator I'm getting to be. If only I could
get one really big case. A murder trial, for instance. But one needs
luck for that!"
So the equable days went by.
4
April came; and, to Aliette, the fret of spring. More and more with
every opening bud, with every deepening of the green leaf-haze along the
river-bank below her windows, she yearned for children--for Ronnie's
children. Her body gave no sign; but already, as though for warning, her
mind was pregnant with a new power, the power of prophetic imagination
which comes only to the isolated.
Sometimes--as when, after one of Mollie's rare visits, it showed her
sister married to Wilberforce--this new power pleased Aliette;
sometimes, playing about Hector, it frightened her. But always it made
her restless; so that, abandoning more and more of her household duties
to Caroline Staley, she walked again with Ponto, as she had walked in
the old days when Ronnie was not yet hers.
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