"But you must." His voice thrilled. "You must. We can't leave things
like this--undecided."
Self-possessed once more, she faced him. "Don't try to hurry me, Ronnie.
We've talked too much this afternoon. My brain's weary. I can't decide
anything. I thought that, being with you, things would be easier.
They're not. They're more difficult. You must give me time----"
"Then"--his voice saddened--"I haven't been any help to you?"
A laugh rose in her throat, dimpling it. "I'm afraid we're neither of us
very wise; but"--she offered him her ungloved hand--"it's been very
sweet, being with you. That's why--you haven't helped me very much."
Silently, hating that she must go, he released her fingers. She was all
a wonder to his eyes, all a riddle to his brain. He wanted to say: "But
you mustn't go. You're mine, mine. I don't care a damn for your husband,
for my career, for my mother, for the law. Stay with me. Stay with me
to-night."
Actually, he forebore even to kiss her good-by!
3
Aliette had been gone an hour. . . .
Moses Moffatt came in. Moses Moffatt cleared away the tea-things. Moses
Moffatt asked: "Will you be dining at home, sir?" Some one answered,
"No!" Moses Moffatt went out.
Aliette had been gone two whole hours. The some one became Ronald
Cavendish.
He found that he must have been smoking cigarettes--one cigarette after
the other. Ash and paper smoldered on the silver tray at his side. The
room stank of tobacco. But tobacco could not drive away that other
perfume--the perfume of Aliette's womanhood.
She had been in this very room! The essence of her still pervaded every
nook of it. His imagination conjured up the image of her: Aliette
dimpling to laughter: Aliette's brown eyes, now bright with joy, now
dimmed with tears: the vivid of Aliette's hair: the little gestures of
Aliette's hands. All these he saw, and possessed again in memory.
Again she lay in his arms. Again she let him kiss the tears from her
eyes. Again she yielded him her hands, her hair. But she had yielded him
more than these; she had yielded him her very thoughts: she had said,
"I'm very weak; you're the only person who can help me."
Remembering those words, he grew ashamed. He must not think for himself:
he must think for her. She had said that she would marry him if she were
free. But there was only one way to freedom--unless Brunton let her
divorce him. And that alternative she had refused to contemplate.
No! There was only one path to her freedom, to their happiness--the path
of scandal. Dared he demand that sacrifice from her?
After all, why not? The scandal would be short-lived--the happiness
enduring. She was Brunton's merely in name. She had no children.
Legally, they might have to put themselves in the wrong; but morally
they would be justified. Between them and happiness stood only the
shibboleths.
Nevertheless, the shibboleths mattered. Shibboleths were the basis of
all society.
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