"Golden words--golden words, young man!" he cried, with a tender smile.
"'Invent, create, achieve!' Yes, that's our business; I know it well.
Don't take me, in Heaven's name, for one of your barren
complainers--impotent cynics who have neither talent nor faith! I am at
work!"--and he glanced about him and lowered his voice as if this were a
quite peculiar secret--"I'm at work night and day. I have undertaken a
_creation_! I am no Moses; I am only a poor patient artist; but it would
be a fine thing if I were to cause some slender stream of beauty to flow
in our thirsty land! Don't think me a monster of conceit," he went on,
as he saw me smile at the avidity with which he adopted my illustration;
"I confess that I am in one of those moods when great things seem
possible! This is one of my nervous nights--I dream waking! When the
south wind blows over Florence at midnight it seems to coax the soul from
all the fair things locked away in her churches and galleries; it comes
into my own little studio with the moonlight, and sets my heart beating
too deeply for rest. You see I am always adding a thought to my
conception! This evening I felt that I couldn't sleep unless I had
communed with the genius of Buonarotti!"
He seemed deeply versed in local history and tradition, and he expatiated
_con amore_ on the charms of Florence. I gathered that he was an old
resident, and that he had taken the lovely city into his heart. "I owe
her everything," he declared. "It's only since I came here that I have
really lived, intellectually. One by one, all profane desires, all mere
worldly aims, have dropped away from me, and left me nothing but my
pencil, my little note-book" (and he tapped his breast-pocket), "and the
worship of the pure masters--those who were pure because they were
innocent, and those who were pure because they were strong!"
"And have you been very productive all this time?" I asked
sympathetically.
He was silent a while before replying. "Not in the vulgar sense!" he
said at last. "I have chosen never to manifest myself by imperfection.
The good in every performance I have re-absorbed into the generative
force of new creations; the bad--there is always plenty of that--I have
religiously destroyed. I may say, with some satisfaction, that I have
not added a mite to the rubbish of the world. As a proof of my
conscientiousness"--and he stopped short, and eyed me with extraordinary
candour, as if the proof were to be overwhelming--"I have never sold a
picture! 'At least no merchant traffics in my heart!' Do you remember
that divine line in Browning? My little studio has never been profaned
by superficial, feverish, mercenary work. It's a temple of labour, but
of leisure! Art is long. If we work for ourselves, of course we must
hurry. If we work for her, we must often pause. She can wait!"
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