The Maid of Honour: A Tale of the Dark Days of France. Vol. 2 (of 3)Wingfield, Lewis
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The Maid of Honour: A Tale of the Dark Days of France. Vol. 2 (of 3)
Wingfield, Lewis
France -- History -- Revolution, 1789-1799 -- Fiction; Historical fiction
And then she reflected moodily about that said husband, as she
had at last learned to know him. Selfish and self-indulgent to the
core--heartless, too, or he could not survey his wife's sufferings
with such perfect equanimity. True, he knew little about her, and
troubled less. If he had not again dismissed her from his mind he
could not but perceive her suffering. He was infatuated by that
dreadful woman, and further beguiled astray by his insidious brother.
No help was to be expected from him, or, indeed, from any one. She had
boldly defied the abbé. Would she be given strength to fight? Alas,
alas! Did she not know too well that she was not made for fighting?
Where, then, to look for assistance? Rising, she slowly paced the
room, and thought Heaven was cruel. Why not have let her die? Sure
'tis a venial sin to put off what one cannot bear? We can feel for
ourselves with the instinct with which we are endowed, that the
burthen is too great. Heaven is busy with other things--too
indifferent to know or care what we poor pigmies feel. She paused in
her walk before a mirror and shook her head at the pale and drawn
reflexion. "Oh! fatal gift of beauty," she murmured, "which men
pretend to worship, swearing that 'tis a glimpse of paradise. It is a
devil's gift; for its province is to stir the foulest lees of the base
human soul and set them festering."
What was she to do--what to expect? Perhaps he had already invented
and set going some new plan to torture her. Would she have done
better, being but a helpless, tempest-tossed sport of destiny, to have
surrendered, pleading her weakness and his strength? Had he not
touched on the cherubs, she might have given way for very weariness;
but they, as she had declared, were her buckler. They wist not of her,
nor cared, being transferred to other hands, and yet they stood 'twixt
her and the precipice. Then she fell a thinking of Victor and pretty
Camille. When they grew up they would seek their mother. Would they
not? If not, why live? Better--better far--to die. Yes: Heaven had
been cruel--very, very cruel!
Suspecting nothing of the abbé's move, Mademoiselle Brunelle resolved
on that very self-same morning to operate on her own account. She made
her way boldly to the boudoir, and without knocking, entered.
Gabrielle started, and dried her eyes. The woman dared to invade her
sanctuary. For what purpose? In her highly-strung condition of
despairing nervousness, it seemed to Gabrielle that the governess
looked as wicked and as menacing as the abbé.
In truth there was a sour curl about her lips that was not becoming.
The marquise, as white as a sheet, in tears? Crying her eyes out in
solitude--the whining idiot! That so weak and contemptible an obstacle
should be allowed to stand between herself and her ambition was
preposterous. Well, the victim should be given the wrench which should
impel her to retire from the scene.
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