Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- History -- 1775-1865 -- Fiction
The story was evidently a good one, for Hyde laughed at the recital
with a noisy merriment very unusual to him. The champ and gallop of the
horses, and Clymer's vociferous enjoyment of his own wit, blended with
it; and for a moment or two Hyde was under a physical exhilaration as
intoxicating as the foam of the champagne they had been drinking. In
the height of this meretricious gaiety, a carriage, driving at a rather
rapid rate turned into the road; and Cornelia suddenly raised her eyes
to the festive young men, and then dropped them with an abrupt, even
angry expression.
Hyde became silent and speechless, and Clymer was quickly infected by
the very force and potency of his companion's agitation and distressed
surprise. He heard him mutter, "Oh this is intolerable!" and then, it
was, as if a cold sense of dislike had sprung up between them.--Both
were glad to escape the other's company, and Hyde fled to the privacy
of his own room, that he might hide there the almost unbearable chagrin
and misery this unfortunate meeting had caused him.
"Where shall I run to avoid myself?" he cried as he paced the floor in
an agony of shame. "She will never respect me again. She ought not. I
am the most wretched of lovers. Such a tom-fool to betray me as Anthony
Clymer! A man like a piece of glass, that I have seen through a dozen
times!" Then he threw himself into a chair and covered his face with
his hands, and wept tears full of anger and shameful distress.
For some days sorrow, and confusion, and distraction bound his senses;
he refused all company, would neither eat, nor sleep, nor talk, and he
looked as white and wan as a spectre. A stupid weight, a dismal sullen
stillness succeeded the storm of shame and grief; and he felt himself
to be the most forlorn of human beings. If it had been only possible to
undo things done! he would have bought the privilege with years. At
length, however, the first misery of that wretched meeting passed away,
and then he resolved to forget.
"It is all past!" he said despairingly. "She is lost to me forever! Her
memory breaks my heart! I will not remember any longer! I will forfeit
all to forgetfulness. Alas, alas, Cornelia! Though you would not
believe me, it was the perfectest love that I gave you!"
Cornelia's sorrow, though quite as profound, was different in
character. Her sex and various other considerations taught her more
restraint; but she also felt the situation to be altogether
unendurable, and after a few moments of bitterly eloquent silence, she
said--
"Mother, let us go home. I can bear this place no longer. Let us go
home to-morrow. Twice this past week I have been made to suffer more
than you can imagine. The man is apparently worthless--but I love him."
"You say 'apparently' Cornelia?"
"Oh, how can I tell? There may be excuses--compulsions--I do not know
what. I am only sure of one thing, that I love and suffer."
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