Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- History -- 1775-1865 -- Fiction
The answering of these letters was naturally Cornelia's first afternoon
thought. It troubled her to remember that Joris had already been
waiting some hours for a reply, for she had no hesitation as to what
that reply should be. To write to Joris was a delightful thing, an
unusual pleasure, and she sat down, smiling, to pen the lines which she
thought would bring her much happiness, but which were doomed to bring
her a great sorrow.
MY JORIS! My dear Friend:
'Tis scarce an hour since I received your letter, but I have read it
over four times. And whatever you desire, that also is my desire; and I
am deceived as much as you, if you think I do not love you as much as I
am loved by you. You know my heart, and from you I shall never hide it;
and I think if I were asleep, I should tell you how much I love you;
for, indeed, I often dream that I do so. Come, then, this very night as
soon as you think convenient. If my father is in a suitable temper it
will be well to speak plainly to him, and I am sure that my mother will
say in our favour all that is wise.
Our love, with no recognition but our own, has been so strangely sweet
that I could be content never to alter that condition; and yet I fear
no bond, and am ready to put it all to the trial. For if our love is
not such as will uphold an engagement, it will sink of itself; and if
it is true as we believe it to be, then it may last eternally. What
more is to say I will keep for your ear, for you are enough in my heart
to know all my thoughts, and to know better than I can tell you how
dearly, how constantly, how entirely I love you.
Yours forever, CORNELIA.
Without a pause, without an erasure this letter had transcribed itself
from Cornelia's heart to the small gilt-edged note paper; but she found
it a much more difficult thing to answer the request of Rem Van Ariens.
She was angry at him for putting her in such a dilemma. She thought
that she had made plain as possible to him the fact that she was
pleased to be a companion, a friend, a sister, if he so desired, but
that love between them was not to be thought of. She had told Arenta
this many times, and she had done so because she was certain Arenta
would make this position clear to her brother. And under ordinary
circumstances Arenta would have been frank and free enough with Rem,
but while her own marriage was such an important question she was not
inclined to embarrass or shadow its arrangements by suggesting things
to Rem likely to cause disagreements when she wished all to be
harmonious and cheerful. So Arenta had encouraged, rather than dashed,
Rem's hopes, for she did not doubt that Cornelia would finally undo
very thoroughly what she had done.
"A little love experience will be a good thing for Rem," she said to
herself--"it will make a man of him; and I do hope he has more
self-respect and courage than to die of her denial."
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