Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- History -- 1775-1865 -- Fiction
It is easy, then, to understand how Cornelia, relying on Arenta's
usually ready advice and confidences, was sure that Rem had accepted
the friendship that was all in her power to give him, and that this
belief gave to their intercourse a frank and kindly intimacy that it
would not otherwise have obtained. This state of things was desirable
and comfortable for Arenta, and Cornelia also had found a great
satisfaction in a friendship which she trusted had fully recognized and
accepted its limitations. Now, all these pleasant moderate emotions
were stirred into uncomfortable agitation by Rem's unlooked-for and
unreasonable request. She was hurt and agitated and withal a little
sorry for Rem, and she was also in a hurry, for the letter for Joris
was waiting, as she wished to send both by the same messenger. Finally
she wrote the following words, not noticing at the time, but
remembering afterwards, what a singular soul reluctance she
experienced; how some uncertain presentiment, vague and dark and drear,
stifled her thoughts and tried to make her understand, or at least
pause. But alas! the doom that walks side by side with us, never warns;
it seems rather to stand sarcastic at our ignorance, and to watch
speculatively the cloud of trouble coming--coming on purpose because we
foolishly or carelessly call it to us.
MY DEAR AND HONOURED FRIEND:
Your letter has given me very great sorrow. You must have known for
many weeks, even months, that marriage between us was impossible. It
has always been so, it always will be so. Why could you not be content?
We have been so happy! So happy! and now you will end all. But Fortune,
though often cruel, cannot call back times that are past, and I shall
never forget our friendship. I grieve at your going away; I pray that
your absence may bring you some consolation. Do not, I beg you, attempt
to call on my father. Without explanations, I tell you very sincerely,
such a call will cause me great trouble; for you know well a girl must
trust somewhat to others' judgment in her disposal. It gives me more
pain than I can say to write in this mood, but necessity permits me no
kinder words. I want you to be sure that the wrench, the "No" here is
absolute. My dear friend, pity rather than blame me; and I will be so
unselfish as to hope you may not think so kindly of me as to be cruel
to yourself. Please to consider your letter as never written, it is the
greatest kindness you can do me; and, above all, I beg you will not
take my father into your confidence. With a sad sense of the pain my
words must cause you, I remain for all time your faithful friend and
obedient servant,
CORNELIA MORAN.
Then she rang for a lighted candle, and while waiting for its arrival
neatly folded her letters. Her white wax and seal were at hand, and she
delayed the servant until she had closed and addressed them.
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