Canada -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Canada -- Fiction
But Larry having shot his bolt ignored his fallen enemy, and without a
glance at him, or at either of the other boys, or without a word to
any of them, he walked away through the wood, and deaf to their calling
disappeared through the cedar swamp and made straight for home and
to his mother. With even, passionless voice, with almost no sign of
penitence, he told her the story of the day's truancy.
As her discriminating eye was quick in discerning his penitence, so her
forgiveness was quick in meeting his sin. But though her forgiveness
brought the boy a certain measure of relief he seemed almost to take it
for granted, and there still remained on his face a look of pain and
of more than pain that puzzled his mother. He seemed to be in a maze
of uncertainty and doubt and fear. His mother could not understand his
distress, for Larry had told her nothing of his encounter with Mop.
Throughout the evening there pounded through the boy's memory the
terrible words, “He is a coward and his mother is a coward before him.”
Through his father's prayer at evening worship those words continued to
beat upon his brain. He tried to prepare his school lessons for the day
following, but upon the page before his eyes the same words took shape.
He could not analyse his unutterable sense of shame. He had been afraid
to fight. He knew he was a coward, but there was a deeper shame in which
his mother was involved. She was a Quaker, he knew, and he had a more
or less vague idea that Quakers would not fight. Was she then a coward?
That any reflection should be made upon his mother stabbed him to the
heart. Again and again Mop's sneering, grinning face appeared before
his eyes. He felt that he could have gladly killed him in the woods, but
after all, the paralysing thought ever recurred that what Mop said was
true. His mother was a coward! He put his head down upon his books and
groaned aloud.
“What is it, dear?” inquired his mother.
“I am going to bed, mother,” he said.
“Is your head bad?” she asked.
“No, no, mother. It is nothing. I am tired,” he said, and went upstairs.
Before she went to sleep the mother, as was her custom, looked in upon
him. The boy was lying upon his face with his arms flung over his head,
and when she turned him over to an easier position, on the pillow and
on his cheeks were the marks of tears. Gently she pushed back the thick,
black, wavy locks from his forehead, and kissed him once and again. The
boy turned his face toward her. A long sobbing sigh came from his parted
lips. He opened his eyes.
“That you, mother?” he asked, the old whimsical smile at his lips.
“Good-night.”
He settled down into the clothes and in a moment was fast asleep. The
mother stood looking down upon her boy. He had not told her his trouble,
but her touch had brought him comfort, and for the rest she was content
to wait.
CHAPTER II
A FIGHT FOR FREEDOM
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