The Man in Black: An Historical Novel of the Days of Queen AnneJames, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
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The Man in Black: An Historical Novel of the Days of Queen Anne
James, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
Great Britain -- History -- Anne, 1702-1714 -- Fiction
At that very moment, as she sat there, with her head resting on her
hand, what is the meaning of that stern, knitted brow, that fixed,
steadfast gaze forward, that tight compression of the lips and teeth
At that moment Nero's wish was in the bosom of Mrs. Hazleton. Could
she have slaughtered half the human race to blot out all evidence of
her crimes, and to escape the grinning shame which she knew awaited
her, she would have done it without remorse. Other feelings, too, were
present. A sense of anger at herself for having suffered herself to be
in the slightest degree moved or agitated by any thing that had
occurred; a determined effort, too, was there--I will not call it a
struggle--to regain entire command of herself--to be as calm, as
graceful, as self-possessed, as dignified as when in high prosperity
with unsullied fame. It might be, in a certain sense, playing a part,
and doubtless the celebrated Madame Tiquet did the same; but she was
playing a part for her own eyes, as well as those of others. She
resolved to be firm, and she was firm. "Death," she said, "is before
me: for that I am prepared. It cannot agitate a nerve, or make a limb
shake. All other evils are trifles compared with this. Why then should
I suffer them to affect me in the least? No, no, they shall not see me
quail!"
After she had thus thought for some two hours, gaining more and more
self-command every moment, as she turned and re-turned all the points
of her situation in her own mind, and viewed them in every different
aspect, she rose to retire to rest, lay down, and tried to sleep. At
first importunate thought troubled her. The same kind of ideas went
on--the same reasonings upon them--and slumber for more than one hour
would not visit her eyelids. But she was a very resolute woman, and at
length she determined that she would not think: she would banish
thought altogether; she would not let the mind rest for one moment
upon any subject whatsoever; and she succeeded. The absence of thought
is sleep; and she slept; but resolution ended where sleep begun, and
the images she had banished waking, returned to the mind in slumber.
Her rest was troubled. Growing fancies seemed to come thick upon her
mind; though the eyes remained closed, the features were agitated; the
lips moved. Sometimes she laughed; sometimes she moaned piteously;
sometimes tears found their way through her closed eyelids; and sobs
struggled in her bosom.
At length, between three and four o'clock in the morning, Mrs.
Hazleton rose up in bed. She opened her eyes, too; but there was a
dull glassy look about them--a fixed leaden stare, not natural to her
waking hours. Slowly she got out of bed, approached the table, took up
a candle which she had left burning there, and which was now nearly
down to the socket, and walked straight to the door, saying aloud,
"Very dark--very dark--every thing is dark."
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