Three days ago the silence of this house was disturbed by the voices of
children, the clatter of their feet, and for the first time in my life I
heard Griselda scream.
"Oh, Mr. Randolph," she rushed in, sobbing, with the dry tearless sobs
of those much acquainted with grief, "Miss Laura—she—the children are
here!"
I knew. Though inwardly I sank all but lifeless under the blow, I knew
clearly that Laura was dead.
"Is she very ill?" I heard myself asking faintly, with a clutching
desire to shrink still from the appalling truth.
"She—oh, Mr. Randolph,’" she lamented, "don’t you understand—ye know
very well!" she suddenly added with a harshness that surprised me. "We
shall have to put the children to bed in your bedroom."
It was as though she had suddenly revolted at the softness of the
atmosphere in my environment, at any artificiality or evasion. She
seemed abruptly determined to face the stark facts in the open.
"The girl will sleep with me," she concluded tonelessly and turned to
go.
"Which girl?" I queried dazedly.
"Her that brought the bairns," she replied and left me.
"Send her in here—I want to speak to her!" I shouted after Griselda. I
could not face the thought of going out there. I was held to my chair
by a sheer pitiful lack of courage to move into the dreadful gulf before
me.
I closed my eyes and endeavored to still the tumult in my brain into
silence. I wanted to think. But only those can achieve silence who do
not need it. I could not. I opened my eyes.
A thin little girl of perhaps twelve or thirteen stood before me. This
surely could not be the girl Griselda had referred to in charge of the
children. She was herself a child. Were my disordered senses tricking
me? I experienced the thrill Poe’s hero must have felt at sight of the
raven on the bust of Pallas.
"Who are you?" I whispered.
"I am Alicia, sir," she answered with large, frightened gray eyes
fastened upon mine.
"What—what is it?" I stammered.
"The lady said you wanted to see me."
"Did you bring the children?" I breathed, incredulous.
"Yes, sir."
I was awestruck. Her eyes, were the eyes of a child yet they were
filled with sorrow and a searching fear old as the world.
"How old are you?" I could not help asking, with an irrelevance foolish
enough in the circumstances.
"Going on fourteen, sir."
"And you—you are the nurse?"
"I helped Mrs. Pendleton with the children before school and after
school," she answered with more assurance now, but still uneasy. "I am
a mother’s helper, sir." There was no mirth in my soul, but the muscles
contorted my features into a sickly grin.
"I see," I murmured mendaciously. But I saw only my own confused
turpitude at my blindness and neglect in face of the shifts and needs
poor Laura had been compelled to suffer.
"Where do you come from?" I inquired with a dry throat, ashamed to ask
anything of importance.
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