But I am only Uncle Ranny—and I don’t suppose I shall do anything of the
kind. Have I not brought him up? Have I not labored and toiled for
him, watched over him? Is he not my child like the rest? There is
something about the person, the very flesh of the child one has reared
that disarms one’s anger and turns the heart to water. His bad manners
hurt more deeply, yet they are not like the bad manners of a stranger.
His transgressions are not like others’ transgressions. In God’s name,
your soul cries out, there must be redeeming features, extenuating
conditions! Have I not had a hand in shaping him? And was he not
ineffably endearing as a child? He may be somewhat wild now, but is not
all youth like that on its path to manhood?
This is a parent’s point of view, I see, not a rival’s. Why, why did
that boy, of all the males in the world, take Alicia from me?
It was only yesterday that it happened, but already it seems like an
ancient calamity that stamps its victim with the slow grind of years of
pain, blanches his flesh and presses him down into the limbo of those
undergoing the slow drawn-out tortures of life.
Yet I was happy yesterday. I came home at one, as I do of Saturdays,
and the early April sunshine, while still treacherous, was nevertheless
full of dazzling promise of spring, of relief from the dread winter we
have endured. My head had been buzzing with schemes like a hive. The
lease of the châlet expires in May and I was full of vain notions of
taking a larger, more attractive house that should be a suitable setting
for Alicia. Only one year more of college is left for Alicia after this
and then—and then—Alicia had talked of entering the shop, and I should
have her with me all the time. How I longed and looked forward to that
day! Alicia my constant companion, sharing every moment of the day,
going and coming together, lunching together, discussing everything.
Who shall blame me if I saw visions?
And then, perhaps an hour after lunch, they suddenly entered my study
together—Randolph a half-pace or so behind her with something hangdog in
his look—an expression I detest in him—and Alicia, head high, flushed
with a look of desperate resolution about the somewhat haggard eyes that
startled me.
I had been occupied in turning over the pages and collating a Caxton, a
genuine Caxton that I meant later to show to Alicia—"The Royal Book,"
(1480, 2d year of the Regne of King Rychard the thyrd)—a beautiful
incunabulum.
Randolph moved abruptly forward with a jerk of the head, and, his eyes
failing to meet mine, he blurted out huskily:
"We’re engaged, Uncle Ran—’Licia and I!"
"What!" I yelled harshly as one in pain and fell against the back of my
chair. "What—what on earth do you mean!"
But he merely looked away, making no response.
"Is this true, Alicia?" I shouted, as if to overtop the tumult in my
breast.
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