"Yes, Uncle Ranny," breathed Alicia, her eyes gazing into mine with a
look so poignantly sad and charged with pain that it froze me as I was
about to speak. I sat for a space, my mouth open, our eyes dwelling
together for an instant. And then, as by a sudden effort, Alicia smiled
valiantly, laid her hand stoutly on the shrinking boy’s arm, and then
abruptly she lowered her gaze.
"But—but why—why now?" I spluttered. "You are both so young—you only a
sophomore, Randolph—and you, Alicia—in God’s name, why now?"
Alicia glanced at Randolph as though depending on him to speak and then
contemptuously giving it up as hopeless, she straightened her shoulders
bravely and murmured in low distinct tones:
"I promised Randolph. He wants me to be engaged to him and I promised
him I would."
"You—you mean you—you love each other?" I stammered miserably, for every
word was a knife thrust into my own heart.
The lad Randolph was now shamed into a little manliness.
"Yes, we do, Uncle Ranny," came forth in his throaty voice. "That’s
just it—we—we love each other. And—’Licia has promised to be engaged to
me ’til I am through college and get a job."
"I suppose it had to come, Uncle Ranny," explained Alicia with what
seemed to me a very labored serenity. "We grew up together. We have
been such chums and—and Randolph seemed to—to need me. Don’t you see,
Uncle Ranny?" There was a piteous note of appeal in her voice which
only seemed to lacerate me the more. But I could not speak.
The sunshine had gone out of the April afternoon. Waves of darkness
seemed to be beating over me, and the strength and energy of a few
minutes back had oozed out of me like so much water. So weak and
shattered did I feel that on a sudden I was seized by a panic fear of
collapse.
"Please leave me now," my lips, strange cold dead things that seemed in
no way a part of my body, brought forth mechanically, yet with heavy
effort. "It’s—it’s a shock—we’ll discuss it later." I do not envy
those two the sight of my face at that moment. I am pretty certain
Randolph did not see it, for he turned away, but I am in doubt about
Alicia. Her eyes were brimming with tears and she came toward me with a
sudden curious movement of the hands, as though she felt rather than saw
her way. Then abruptly her hands dropped to her side and she paused and
turned back sharply.
They left me then, both of them. I remained alone—crushed, stunned,
alone.
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