"Randolph," he murmured in a deep guttural—"I know you—I remember
you—yes, you are—you are—" and he paused. We hung for a moment like
things dangling by threads, like marionettes motionless. Then, with a
prickling sensation of sweat over all my body, I broke the spell by
fumbling with a box of cigarettes and with a hand spasmodically
quivering like the needle of a seismograph, I held them out.
"Have a good voyage?" I heard myself saying, as we all smoked and
covertly stole glances at one another. I was not flying at his throat.
Dibdin puffed heavily with the crease deepening between his eyes and
Pendleton’s gaze roved questing and unsteady about the room. Melodrama!
There never was any except on the stage! In life there is only drama—and
pain.
"How are the kids?" Dibdin asked abruptly.
"Fine!" I exclaimed automatically, in an unnatural voice, like a pistol
shot. "They are out in the garden there," and Dibdin nodded. I felt
certain that his mind also was seeing the analogy to a funeral. And now
my brain seemed to be shaking off its dull lethargy. From somewhere in
Maeterlinck the haunting memory of a phrase came glimmering through my
consciousness, like a dim light through a fog, to the effect that if
Socrates and Christ had been in the palace of Agamemnon, the tragedies
of the house of Atreus could not have happened. I longed for a little
wisdom to deal with the situation.
"Would you like," I turned to Pendleton, "to see the children?"
"The children," he repeated dazedly. "Yes—yes—I’d like to see them.
But—just a moment. The children," he repeated piteously, "but no
Laura!"
Sharp, sharp was the stab at my heart when he spoke her name. But
either he is a supreme master in deceit or I am the dullest of
simpletons. For the struggle through clouds of memory that his features
expressed seemed real to me.
"I told you she was dead!" snapped Dibdin gruffly, without turning to
him.
"You told me? Ah, yes." And he sighed heavily. "Of course you told
me." And his chin sank weightily to his breast. We remained thus
silent for a space. Then—
"Come," I said, standing up. "I’ll take you to the children."
He rose ponderously, his great frame limp and leaden, and followed me
somberly. He seemed sincere enough in his grief, I must own that.
Dibdin did not move.
I led him into the garden toward the spot where the children were
huddled about Alicia. She was talking to them in low tones and they
were listening in dead silence. Never again, I hope, shall I experience
that sense of going to my own execution that I experienced at that
instant. Execution—no! I could have walked to a gibbet or a guillotine
smiling, I am quite sure. What is my life to me? I was walking rather
to the execution of those four young souls under the gnarled old apple
tree.
Alicia, too! By Heaven! Like a lightning stroke that fact crashed into
my soul. He would take Alicia also. No—no! He had no claim upon her,
thank God!
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