Mysticism -- Fiction; Science fiction; Short stories
And he had gone on--higher and higher--driven by an ever-increasing
fever in an ever thinner and more emaciated body. Until, it seemed, he
could go no further. He lay for days in a small cave with the icy winds
snarling at the entrance while he wrestled with two fevers--one in his
spirit and one flaming through his flesh and his bones.
He called in his agony to the man with the golden eyes, but there was
no response. An age passed; an age of semiconsciousness; another; then
he slept.
When he awoke the physical fever was gone and the spiritual fever had
changed to something else; something he had never before known. He lay
for a long time, studying it, analyzing it.
_Then he knew._
He knew and he smiled and got up and walked out of the cave, a pale
wraith of a wasted man; little more than an apparition that appeared
hardly able to stand. Yet he felt stronger and happier than ever
before in his life. His happiness came from the knowledge that his new
strength and understanding had not been given him; that he had earned
it; that he had paid bit by bit with his suffering.
He told himself, _I was not helped. Only guided. I could have died. No
one protected me._
_And now I understand._
He left the cave and climbed, sure-footed, to a higher plateau. Here
there was no snow. Only wind-swept rock and meager soil. He walked
until he came to his destination.
It was another hut; this one of sod and rock to stand against the wind
and the cold. A man sat in the doorway, swathed in furs. His skin was
dark from the weather, but it was impossible to call him either old or
young.
Lee did not even dwell on these points. He only knew--from his
new perception, from the new mysticism he had earned with his
suffering--that the hut and the man would be there; that no chance had
brought him; that all had been arranged as surely as sunrise.
He stood before the man and raised his eyes. "The mountains are high."
"The mountains are always high. No man ever reaches the summit of his
mountain."
"I know that now."
"Nor even a cave halfway up the mountain's side."
"That I know too. I also know--"
"That the man with the golden eyes--?"
"Is myself. He was there within me back in my room half a world away,
not in a cave in the Himalayas."
"The man with the golden eyes, my son, is every man--the symbol of
perfection every man carries in his heart. It is the seeking after this
perfection that is life: The man with the golden eyes is the image of
what every man has the power to be."
"I know these things now, but tell me. Why was it given to me to see
the image so clearly?"
"Each man who reaches the depths is given a choice. On one hand is
death; on the other, the long climb back."
"But there was more in my case. I was given help. I was guided."
"Your footsteps may have been directed but you had to make the climb
yourself. You could always have given up and died along the way."
"But why was I guided?"
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