'There's always artificial insemination: taking a man's sperm
and a woman's egg and placing them together, either in the uterus, or
in the laboratory. But that's so cold and mechanical. Also,
we're trying to stay a little closer to nature than our predecessors,
hoping to avoid some of their mistakes. And for me, at least,
there's a spiritual' side to it: which sperm cell is MEANT to
fertilize which egg. Can you see what I'm driving at?'
Kalus, who had understood very little, could only say. 'I have made
love to only two women in my life. And I should have been more than
content with the one, if she..... Well if..... I don't know if I
can help you,' he finished weakly. But then, whether because of the
alcohol, the other man's openness, or the sheer physical need to let
it out, he told him.
'I made love to Kataya last night.'
'Good,' said Smith warmly. 'Good for you.'
'Not good for me. . .or Sylviana. She learned of it, and cast me
out.' He lowered his face, bitter and ashamed. 'I feel as if
I'm already dead.'
Smith was quiet for a moment, allowing the other to gather himself, then
simply said what he thought.
'You did nothing wrong, Kalus. I see in you no more of the user and
the taker than I do in myself---probably the reason we've both slept
with so few women. But as for Sylviana. . .maybe she won't
understand. But maybe, in time, she will. Welles is probably giving
her the same talk right now.'
At this Kalus looked down into the bowl once more, and saw to his relief
and glimmering hope that Dr. Welles was in fact speaking seriously with
Sylviana, who blushed, looking down, then up at him uncertainly.
'In the meantime,' Smith continued, 'Try not to isolate
yourself so much. Loneliness will kill you by itself. Throw in
alienation and remorse, and it's no wonder you feel the way you
do.' He looked the man-child straight in the eye, and said sincerely.
'Be my friend, Kalus. The rest of us aren't so bad. But if you
have trouble being open with them, then start with me. I'm not
nearly as shallow and glib as I come across---a defense mechanism I
guess, to keep myself from being hurt. But I do care, and I'd be
honored.' And he gave Kalus his hand on it.
Kalus took it in his own, finding unexpected relief, as Sylviana watched
him, and listened to Dr. Welles, and felt her hard resolve begin to
waver.
And all might still have been well, but for the sinister and unknown
timing of the Stranger, who at that moment descended the rise at a cold
distance from the two men, and seeing the strange and alluring new
woman, devoted to her all his questionable attention.
Chapter 44
William, who admitted to having no last name, was of slightly less than
average height, with dark hair, a rough complexion, and a certain
quality of nondescriptness about his face and features.
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