She did not lift her face, and he stepped quietly to the door. Half-way
through he turned about and raised one arm over his head. “God's rest
and God's peace be with you, and may the man that gets you keep a clane
heart and a clane hand, and be fit for the good woman he's won for his
wife.”
At the next minute he went tearing down the stairs, and the kitchen rang
with his laughter.
XVI.
Fate scored one. Kate had been telling herself that Philip was tired of
her, that he did not love her any longer, that having taken all he could
take he desired to be done with her, that he was trying to forget her,
and that she was a drag upon him, when suddenly she remembered the
tholthan, and bethought herself for the first time of a possible
contingency. Why had she not thought of it before? Why had _he_ never
thought of it? _If_ it should come to pass! The prospect did not appal
her; it did not overwhelm her with confusion or oppress her with shame;
it did not threaten to fall like a thunderbolt; the thought of it came
down like an angel's whisper.
She was not afraid. It was only an idea, only a possibility, only a
dream of consequences, but at one bound it brought her so much nearer to
Philip. It gave her a right to him. How dare he make her suffer so? She
would not permit him to leave her. He was her husband, and he must
cling to her, come what would. Across the void that had divided them
a mysterious power drew them together. She was he, and he was she, and
they were one, for--who knows?--who could say?--perhaps Nature herself
had willed it.
Thus the first effect of the new thought upon Kate was frenzied
exultation. She had only one thing to do now. She had only to go
to Philip as Bathsheba went to David. True, she could not say what
Bathsheba said. She had no certainty, but her case was no less strong.
“Have you never thought of what may possibly occur?” This is what she
would say now to Philip. And Philip would say to her, “Dearest, I have
never thought of that. Where was my head that I never reflected?” Then,
in spite of his plans, in spite of his pledge to Pete, in spite of the
world, in spite of himself--yea, in spite of his own soul if it stood
between them--he would cling to her; she was sure of it--she could swear
to it--he could not resist.
“He will believe whatever I tell him,” she thought, and she would say,
“Come to me, Philip; I am frightened.” In the torture of her palpitating
heart she would have rejoiced at that moment if she could have been sure
that she was in the position of what the world calls a shameful woman.
With that for her claim she could see herself going to Philip and
telling him, her head on his breast, whispering sweetly the great
secret--the wondrous news. And then the joy, the rapture, the long kiss
of love! “Mine, mine, mine! he is mine at last!”
That could not be quite so; she was not so happy as Bathsheba; she was
not sure, but her right was the same for all that. Oh, it was joyful, it
was delicious!
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