With this determination, and a feeling of immense relief, she went
downstairs. Cæsar was coming in from the preaching-room, and Pete from
the new house at Ramsey. They sat down to dinner. After dinner she would
speak out. Cæsar sharpened the carving-knife on the steel, and said,
“We've taken the girl Christian Killip back to communion to-day.”
“Poor thing,” said Grannie, “pity she was ever put out of it, though.”
“Maybe so,--maybe no,” said Cæsar. “Necessary anyway; one scabby sheep
infects the flock.”
“And has marriage daubed grace on the poor sheep's sore then, Cæsar?”
said Pete.
“She's Mistress Robbie Teare and a dacent woman, sir,” said Cæsar,
digging into the beef, “and that's all the truck a Christian church has
got with it.”
Kate did not eat her dinner that day, and neither did she speak out as
she had intended. A supernatural power seemed to have come down at the
last moment and barred up the one remaining pathway of escape. She was
in the track of the storm. The tempest was ready to fall on her. Where
could she fly for shelter?
What her father had said of the girl had revealed her life to her in the
light of her relation to Philip. The thought of the possible contingency
which she had foreseen with so much joy, as so much power, had awakened
the consciousness of her moral position. She was a fallen woman! What
else was she? And if the contingency befell, what would become of her?
In the intensity of her father's pietistic views the very shadow of
shame would overwhelm his household, overthrow his sect, and uproot
his religious pretensions. Kate trembled at the possibility of such a
disaster coming through her. She saw herself being driven from house and
home. Where could she fly? And though she fled away, would she not still
be the cause of sorrow and disgrace to all whom she left behind--her
mother, her father, Pete, everybody?
If she could only tear out the past, at least she could stop this
marriage. Or if she had been a man she could stop it, for a man may sin
and still look to the future with a firm face. But she was a woman, and
a woman's acts may be her own, but their consequences are beyond her.
Oh, the misery of being a woman! She asked herself what she could do,
and there was no answer. She could not break the web of circumstances.
Her situation might be false, it might be dishonourable, but there was
no escape from it. There was no gleam of hope anywhere.
Late that night--Sunday night--they were sitting together in the
kitchen, Kate in the fire-seat as usual, Pete on the stool by the turf
closet, smoking up the chimney, Cæsar reading aloud, Grannie listening,
and Nancy cooking the supper, when the porch door burst open and
somebody entered. Kate rose to her feet with a startled cry of joy,
looked round eagerly, and then sat down again covered with confusion.
It was the girl Christian Killip, a pale, weak, frightened creature,
with the mouth and eyes of a hare.
“Is Mr. Quilliam here?” she asked.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account