He thought his mother had never been fatuous before: she thought he took
the news morosely, and perhaps her expectation had been too high. She
assumed that a child was the first consideration of a man’s life; which
is not true, even, of all women and true of only a minority of men.
Nor was Sam, in fact, morose. He had never been more intensely and
silently alive. In itself, this thing was right with a shining exultant
rightness which warmed him to the marrow. It crowned and completed
Marbeck and it crowned and completed him. He who was childless was to be
a father, and by Effie! He had nothing but a thankful emotion for that,
and looked with yearning eyes at Effie, giver of all else, who was now
to give him this. He had not known her wonder could increase.
He saw that more was expected of him than that he should look at her
adoringly. Anne was on tip-toe with anticipation. Her difficulty, if
indeed she had acknowledged to herself that there was any, had been to
make these visionaries see that love mattered and that Ada did not;
and her success with Effie had been complete. She had never doubted of
success with Sam, the weaker vessel, for there was love, sufficient in
itself; and there was now the added argument of Effie’s child. She could
not see that he had any choice.
He stood there conscious of the expectancy of their regard, and knew
that he was failing them. He thought they took a blinkered view, seeing
the child and nothing else. To them, apparently, the child came first:
they were hypnotized by what was, really, an afterthought, and there was
the greater need for him to keep a steadfast eye upon the truth. As he
saw it, the truth was that he had put his hand to another plough; on
Hartle Pike he had lighted such a candle by Effie’s grace as he trusted
would never be put out; and he had gone to Ada. True, Ada had gone
from him, but that was temporary and trivial, whereas here was a real
distraction and he saw two loyalties before him--to Effie and the idea,
and to Effie and her child. It seemed to Sam that the first was the
greater of these two.
He had wrestled with an afterthought before, one which hardly yielded
in temptation to that which now confronted him, and he had thrown it. He
had refused to contest Sandyford because there was not room for politics
in a scheme which included Ada, and still less was there room for Effie.
He felt faint with discouragement at the thought that Effie, unless
appearance belied her, had capitulated to her afterthought, but he stood
firmly by their treaty. They had decided that duty came first; he had
shouldered duty; and he, at any rate, had no room for afterthoughts.
He was loyal to Effie and the Marbeck pact, duty’s bondsman, Ada’s
husband. He made a gesture of decision, which Anne misinterpreted.
“Aye,” she said a little smugly, “this settles it all right. It wasn’t
common sense in you to part before, but I reckon there’ll be no parting
now.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account