"Mlle de Saint-Geneix, I remember that you have sometimes expressed a
good-natured wish to know about this work of mine, and I thought I could
never make up my mind to satisfy you; but now,--yes, now, I feel that
submitting it to you will give me pleasure. This book is your work much
more than it is mine, after all; because I did not believe in it, and
you have led me to respect the impulse which prompted it. By restoring
my faith in my task, you have enabled me to carry it further in one
month than I had done for ten years before. You are also the cause why I
shall certainly finish a thing which I should, perhaps, have been always
recommencing until my last hour. Besides, it was near at hand, this last
hour! I felt it coming quickly, and I hastened, the prey of despair, for
I could see nothing advancing but the close of my life. You ordered me
to live, and I have lived; to be calm, and I am at peace; to believe in
God, and in myself, and I do so believe. Since I now have faith in my
thought you must also give me faith in my power to express it, for
although I do not hold to style more than is reasonable, yet I consider
it necessary to give weight and attractiveness to truth. Here, my
friend, read!"
"Yes," replied Caroline, eagerly; "you see that I do not hesitate, that
I do not refuse; and this is neither prudent nor modest on my part. Very
well, I am not disturbed by that! I am so sure of your talent, that I
stand in no fear of the fact that I shall have to be sincere, and I
believe so thoroughly in the harmony of our opinions, that I even
flatter myself I shall comprehend what, under other circumstances, would
be beyond my reach."
But, as she was about to take the manuscript, Caroline hesitated before
accepting so especial a mark of confidence, and inquired whether the
excellent Duke was not also to be a sharer in this gratification.
"No," replied the Marquis, "my brother will not come to-day. I have
seized upon a time when he is away hunting. I do not wish him to know
about my work before it is finished; he would not comprehend it. His
hereditary prejudices would stand in the way. To be sure he thinks he
has a few 'advanced ideas' as he calls them, and he knows that I go
farther than he; but he does not suspect how far I have strayed from the
road in which my education placed me. My rebellion against these things
of the past would put him in consternation, and this might disturb me
before the close of my work. But you yourself,--perhaps you are going to
be a little uneasy?"
"I have reached no decision myself," replied Caroline, "and very
probably I shall adopt your opinions when I understand them exactly. Sit
down now; I will read aloud for your benefit as well as my own. I want
you to hear yourself speak. I think this must be a good way of rereading
one's work."
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