Urbain (the Marquis) felt this partiality and suffered from it; but he
never allowed himself to complain, and perhaps, already putting a just
estimate upon his brother, he did not care to contend with him on such
frivolous grounds.
In the course of time, the Marchioness found out that she had been
greatly mistaken, and that sentiments should be judged by deeds rather
than by words; but the habit of spoiling her prodigal son had now become
fixed, and to this she soon added a tender pity for the bewildered
perversity which seemed to be leading the wilful youth to his own
destruction. This perversity, however, did not take its rise in an evil
heart. Vanity at first, and dissipation afterward, then the loss of
energy, and at last the tyranny of vice,--that, briefly, is the history
of this man, charming without real refinement, good without grandeur of
soul, sceptical without atheism. At the age when we are describing him,
there was in him an awful void in the place where his conscience should
have been, and yet it was a conscience rather absent than dead. There
would sometimes be returns of it, and struggles with it, fewer and
briefer indeed than they had been in his youth, but perhaps on that
account all the more desperate; and the one which was going on within
him at this time was so cruel that he laid his hand repeatedly upon one
of his splendid weapons, as if he were haunted by the spectre of
suicide; but he thought of his mother, pushed away the pistols and
locked them up, putting both hands to his head, in the fear that he was
becoming insane.
He had always looked upon money as nothing. His mother's noble
disinterested theories on the subject had made the way of false
reasoning easy to him. Nevertheless he understood that, in effecting his
mother's ruin, he had overstepped his right. He was astounded; he had
gone on up to the last, promising himself that he would stop before
reaching his brother's fortune, and then he had seriously encroached
upon it; but the truth is, that he had not done this knowingly; for,
from motives of delicacy, the Marquis had kept no accounts with him in
matters of detail, and would never have mentioned them at all, had it
not been for the necessity of preserving by an appeal to his honor the
little which was left. The Duke therefore did not feel himself guilty of
deliberate selfishness, and had reproached Urbain warmly and sincerely
for not having warned him sooner. He saw at last the abyss opened by his
lawless and reckless conduct; he was bitterly ashamed of having injured
his brother's prospects and of having no way to repair the harm, without
infringing upon certain rigid principles established by his mother and
his education.
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