"It is only a witticism of Philip's, who has been in to see me," said
Mrs. Dennistoun. "I won't repeat it, for probably I should lose the
point of it--you know I always did spoil a joke in repeating it. I have
been speaking to him," she said, after a little pause, during which both
her laugh and Elinor's smile evaporated in the most curious way, leaving
both of them very grave--"of going away, Elinor."
"Of going away!" Elinor suddenly assumed a startled look; but there is
a difference between doing that and being really startled, which her
mother, alas! was quite enlightened enough to see; and surely once more
there was that mingled relief and relaxation in the lines of her face
which Mrs. Dennistoun had seen before.
"Yes, my darling," she said, "it is June, and everything at the Cottage
will be in full beauty. And, perhaps, it would do you more good to come
down there for a day or two when there is nothing doing than to have me
here, which, after all, has not been of very much use to you."
"Oh, don't say that, mamma. Use!--it has been of comfort unspeakable.
But," Elinor added, hurriedly, "I see the force of all you say. To
remain in London at this time of the year must be a far greater
sacrifice than I have any right to ask of you, mamma."
Oh, the furtive, hurried, unreal words! which were such pain and horror
to say with the consciousness of the true sentiment lying underneath;
which made Elinor's heart sink, yet were brought forth with a sort of
hateful fervour, to imitate truth.
Mrs. Dennistoun saw it all. There are times when the understanding of
such a woman is almost equal to those "larger other eyes" with which it
is our fond hope those who have left us for a better country see, if
they are permitted to see, our petty doings, knowing, better than we
know ourselves, what excuses, what explanations, they are capable of.
"As for the sacrifice," she said, "we will say nothing of that, Elinor.
It is a vain thing to say that if my life would do you any pleasure--for
you don't want to take my life, and probably the best thing I can do
for you is to go on as long as I can. But in the meantime there's no
question at all of sacrifice--and if you can come down now and then for
a day, and sleep in the fresh air----"
"I will, I will, mamma," said Elinor, hiding her face on her mother's
shoulder; and they would have been something more than women if they had
not cried together as they held each other in that embrace--in which
there was so much more than met either eye or ear.
CHAPTER XXII.
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