He watched her for an instant, taking a strange pleasure in her flushed
face and brilliantly eager eyes; then the joy of conscious strength,
the sense of opportunity regained, swept all other considerations out of
sight.
“I accepted,” he said, quickly. “Could any man who was merely human have
done otherwise?”
That was Loder's attitude and action on the night of his jeopardy and
his success, and the following day found his mood unchanged. He was one
of those rare individuals who never give a promise overnight and regret
it in the morning. He was slow to move, but when he did the movement
brushed all obstacles aside. In the first days of his usurpation he had
gone cautiously, half fascinated, half distrustful; then the reality,
the extraordinary tangibility of the position had gripped him when,
matching himself for the first time with men of his own caliber, he had
learned his real weight on the day of his protest against the Easter
adjournment. With that knowledge had been born the dominant factor in
his whole scheme--the overwhelming, insistent desire to manifest his
power. That desire that is the salvation or the ruin of every strong man
who has once realized his strength. Supremacy was the note to which his
ambition reached. To trample out Chilcote's footmarks with his own had
been his tacit instinct from the first; now it rose paramount. It was
the whole theory of creation--the survival of the fittest--the deep,
egotistical certainty that he was the better man.
And it was with this conviction that he entered on the vital period of
his dual career. The imminent crisis, and his own share in it, absorbed
him absolutely.
In the weeks that followed his answer to Fraide's proposal he gave
himself ungrudgingly to his work. He wrote, read, and planned with
tireless energy; he frequently forgot to eat, and slept only through
sheer exhaustion; in the fullest sense of the word he lived for the
culminating hour that was to bring him failure or success.
He seldom left Grosvenor Square in the days that followed, except to
confer with his party. All his interest, all his relaxation even, lay in
his work and what pertained to it. His strength was like a solid wall,
his intelligence was sharp and keen as steel. The moment was his; and
by sheer mastery of will he put other considerations out of sight. He
forgot Chilcote and forgot Lillian--not because they escaped his memory,
but because he chose to shut them from it.
Of Eve he saw but little in this time of high pressure. When a man
touches the core of his capacities, puts his best into the work that in
his eyes stands paramount, there is little place for, and no need
of, woman. She comes before--and after. She inspires, compensates, or
completes; but the achievement, the creation, is man's alone. And all
true women understand and yield to this unspoken precept.
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