“Can't? Oh yes, you can. We can all do--anything. It's not too late;
there's just sufficient time. Chilcote,” he added, suddenly, “don't you
see that the thing has been madness all along--has been like playing
with the most infernal explosives? You may thank whatever you have
faith in that nobody has been smashed up! You are going back. Do you
understand me? You are going back--now, to-day, before it's too late.”
There was a great change in Loder; his strong, imperturbable face was
stirred; he was moved in both voice and manner. Time after time he
repeated his injunction--reasoning, expostulating, insisting. It almost
seemed that he fought some strenuous invisible force rather than the
shattered man before him.
Chilcote moved nervously in his seat. It was the first real clash of
personalities. He felt it--recognized it by instinct. The sense of
domination had fallen on him; he knew himself impotent in the other's
hands. Whatever he might attempt in moments of solitude, he possessed
no voice in presence of this invincible second self. For a while he
struggled--he did not fight, he struggled to resist--then, lifting his
eyes, he met Loder's. “And what will you do?” he said, weakly.
Loder returned his questioning gaze; but almost immediately he turned
aside. “I?” he said. “Oh, I shall leave London.”
XXVII
But Loder did not leave London. And the hour of two on the day following
his dismissal of Chilcote found him again in his sitting-room.
He sat at the centre-table surrounded by a cloud of smoke; a pipe was
between his lips and the morning's newspapers lay in a heap beside
his elbow. To the student of humanity his attitude was intensely
interesting. It was the attitude of a man trammelled by the knowledge
of his strength. Before him, as he sat smoking, stretched a future of
absolute nothingness; and towards this blank future one portion of his
consciousness--a struggling and as yet scarcely sentient portion--pushed
him inevitably; while another--a vigorous, persistent, human
portion--cried to him to pause. So actual, so clamorous was this
silent mental combat that had raged unceasingly since the moment of his
renunciation that at last in physical response to it he pushed back his
chair.
“It's too late!” he said, aloud. “I'm a fool. It's too late!”
Then abruptly, astonishingly, as though in direct response to his spoken
thought, the door opened and Chilcote walked into the room.
Slowly Loder rose and stared at him. The feeling he acknowledged to
himself was anger; but below the anger a very different sensation ran
riotously strong.
And it was in time to this second feeling, this sudden, lawless joy,
that his pulses beat as he turned a cold face on the intruder.
“Well?” he said, sternly.
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