His head was bent and his hand moved carefully as he traced line after
line of meaningless words on a sheet of foolscap. Having covered the
page with writing, he rose, moved to the centre-table, and compared his
task with an open letter that lay there. The comparison seemed to
please him; he straightened his shoulders and threw back his head in an
attitude of critical satisfaction. So absorbed was he that, when a step
sounded on the stairs outside, he did not notice it, and only raised
his head when the door was thrown open unceremoniously. Even then his
interest was momentary.
“Hullo!” he said, his eyes returning to their scrutiny of his task.
Chilcote shut the door and came hastily across the room. He looked ill
and harassed. As he reached Loder he put out his hand nervously and
touched his arm.
Loder looked up. “What is it?” he asked. “Any new development?”
Chilcote tried to smile. “Yes,” he said, huskily; “it's come.”
Loder freed his arm. “What? The end of the world?”
“No. The end of me.” The words came jerkily, the strain that had
enforced them showing in every syllable.
Still Loder was uncomprehending; he could not, or would not, understand.
Again Chilcote caught and jerked at his sleeve. “Don't you see? Can't
you see?”
“No.”
Chilcote dropped the sleeve and passed his handkerchief across his
forehead. “It's come,” he repeated. “Don't you understand? I want you.”
He drew away, then stepped back again anxiously. “I know I'm taking you
unawares,” he said. “But it's not my fault. On my soul, it's not! The
thing seems to spring at me and grip me--” He stopped, sinking weakly
into a chair.
For a moment Loder stood erect and immovable--then, almost with
reluctance, his glance turned to the figure beside him.
“You want me to take your place to-night--without preparation?” His
voice was distinct and firm, but it was free from contempt.
“Yes; yes, I do.” Chilcote spoke without looking up.
“That you may spend the night in morphia--this and other nights?”
Chilcote lifted a flushed, unsettled face. “You have no right to preach.
You accepted the bargain.”
Loder raised his head quickly. “I never--” he began; then both his face
and voice altered. “You are quite right,” he said, coldly. “You won't
have to complain again.”
Chilcote stirred uncomfortably. “My dear chap,” he said, “I meant no
offence. It's merely--”
“Your nerves. I know. But come to business. What am I to do?”
Chilcote rose excitedly. “Yes, business. Let's come to business. It's
rough on you, taking you short like this. But you have an erratic person
to deal with. I've had a horrible day--a horrible day.” His face had
paled again, and in the green lamplight it possessed a grayish hue.
Involuntarily Loder turned away.
Chilcote watched him as he passed to the desk and began mechanically
sorting papers. “A horrible day!” he repeated. “So bad that I daren't
face the night. You have read De Quincey?” he asked, with a sudden
change of tone.
“Yes.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account