He had been leaning back in his seat, his eyes on the ministers
opposite, his arms folded in imitation of Chilcote's most natural
attitude, when this final speculation had come to him; and as it came
his lips had tightened for a moment and his face become hard and cold.
It is an unpleasant thing when a man first unconsciously reckons on the
weakness of another, and the look that expresses the idea is not good
to see. He had stirred uneasily; then his lips had closed again. He was
tenacious by nature, and by nature intolerant of weakness. At the first
suggestion of reckoning upon Chilcote's lapses, his mind had drawn back
in disgust; but as the thought came again the disgust had lessened.
In a week--two weeks, perhaps--Chilcote would reclaim his place. Then
would begin the routine of the affair. Chilcote, fresh from indulgence
and freedom, would find his obligations a thousand times more irksome
than before; he would struggle for a time; then--
A shadowy smile had touched Loder's lips as the idea formed itself.
Then would come the inevitable recall; then in earnest he might venture
to put his hand to the plough. He never indulged in day-dreams, but
something in the nature of a vision had flashed over his mind in that
instant. He had seen himself standing in that same building, seen the
rows of faces first bored, then hesitatingly transformed under his
personal domination, under the one great power he knew himself to
possess--the power of eloquence. The strength of the suggestion had been
almost painful. Men who have attained self-repression are occasionally
open to a perilous onrush of feeling. Believing that they know
themselves, they walk boldly forward towards the high-road and the
pitfall alike.
These had been Loder's disconnected ideas and speculations on the first
day of his new life. At four o'clock on the ninth day he was pacing with
quiet confidence up and down Chilcote's study, his mind pleasantly
busy and his cigar comfortably alight, when he paused in, his walk and
frowned, interrupted by the entrance of a servant.
The man came softly into the room, drew a small table towards the fire,
and proceeded to lay an extremely fine and unserviceable-looking cloth.
Loder watched him in silence. He had grown to find silence a very useful
commodity. To wait and let things develop was the attitude he oftenest
assumed. But on this occasion he was perplexed. He had not rung for
tea, and in any case a cup on a salver satisfied his wants. He looked
critically at the fragile cloth.
Presently the servant departed, and solemnly reentered carrying a
silver tray, with cups, a teapot, and cakes. Having adjusted them to his
satisfaction, he turned to Loder.
“Mrs. Chilcote will be with you in five minutes, sir,” he said.
He waited for some response, but Loder gave none. Again he had found
the advantages of silence, but this time it was silence of a compulsory
kind. He had nothing to say.
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