The master of St. Benedict's, Vol. 2 (of 2)St. Aubyn, Alan
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The master of St. Benedict's, Vol. 2 (of 2)
St. Aubyn, Alan
Cambridge (England) -- Fiction; School principals -- Fiction; Students -- Fiction
'I am sure she will not marry him,' said Maria hotly; 'she will fool
him and ruin his life. She is too great a coward to marry him!'
'She would be a brave woman to marry him, knowing what she knows,'
Pamela said with the hot blood in her face again; 'but I don't think
she will spoil his life.'
'Oh, you don't know! How should you know, you who are made on such
large lines? He has placed the keeping of his life--think of it: of
his life, body and soul!--in her hands. He believes that nothing but
the love of a woman can save him; and he has implored her--that poor
thing--to be a tower of strength to him.'
'Her!' Pamela murmured with her scornful lips, and the rising colour in
her face.
'Yes, dear, he has asked _her_. He has made the mistake that men always
do make: he has asked the wrong woman. He ought to have asked you or
me. I don't think we should have failed him, Pam. We should not stop at
the tower; we should have gone down--down into the mud and the mire.
There is no depth so deep where our love would not have followed him,
and we should have lifted him up. I am quite sure we should have lifted
him up; we should have dragged him out of the very jaws of death and
hell itself, if we had perished in doing it. Oh, I am sure that our
love would have saved him! We should not have stopped at the tower.'
Maria stopped, not at the tower, but for want of breath. The red sunset
light had quite faded out of the sky, and the gray night was closing
in, and already the shadows were filling the silent room.
Pamela drew back from the window into the shadow.
'No,' she said hoarsely, 'we should not have stopped at the tower.'
The next day was the last, the very last, day of the examination for
the Mathematical Tripos. It was the last, the very last, opportunity of
making up for all the failures and mistakes of the past week. The front
place of the year was to be won or lost on that last day. Its result
would be final, quite final.
No wonder Maria Stubbs' conscience smote her when she remembered how
she had neglected Pamela at Hall the previous day. She tried to make
up for it at breakfast. She plied her with eggs and ham and porridge,
but Pamela had no appetite for these dainties; she implored her with
tears in her eyes to consume at least a spoonful of porridge, but
Pamela was not to be moved. She went fasting to the exam., and Maria
went with her so far as the door. She went quite early--girls always
do go earlier than the men; they are always in their places, calm and
collected, five minutes before the time, when the men generally arrive
breathless at the door just as the hour is striking.
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