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So in a state of savage, resentful impatience he lay there, looking
up at the stars, all unconcerned in their cold glitter, types of the
all-enduring, which mocked that poor transient clay which had aspired
to be a planet in a system so mundane as to admit of railway accidents;
and as he looked with despairing eyes he cursed them as the unjust
rulers of his fate. Then, for his mind was in too great a state of
exaltation to dwell long on any one thought, before him rose and
passed as in an extraordinarily vivid panorama the salient incidents
of his career, to be succeeded by the principal stages he had been
wont justifiably to picture in his future. Never to be. The past was
all he could claim now; the present was mere impotence, and the future
had vanished at the touch of a sleepy signalman’s hand on the wrong
lever. He ground his teeth as he thought of it; he had a good deal of
cynical philosophy in him, but it failed here, the stake had been too
great, the certainty of winning too absolute for him to regard this
startling reverse with equanimity. Then he came to review his triumphs,
his mistakes, his sins: the last had been mostly pleasant, none the
less so, perhaps, that his ambition had required their concealment; he
felt he would rather have lived for sin, flagrant, even, and open,
than died like this. If he had known how near the end was he would not
have been so careful; the world’s opinion, bah! What was it worth now?
Something came to his mind that since the jar of the accident he had
strangely forgotten; something that had sent him there, sent him, as
it turned out, to his death. Was there justice in that? Curiously his
legally trained mind began to busy itself in weighing the equity of
the penalty. It was at least strangely swift, fitting and thorough,
but was it just? _Summum jus, summa injuria._ He smiled resentfully
at the aptness of the adage, then became conscious that some one was
speaking to him, was sympathetically asking as to his hurt. A young
man knelt by his side and, with a cushion, tried to make his position
more comfortable, talking cheerily to him the while. He was one of
the uninjured passengers doing his best for his less fortunate fellow
travellers. For the moment Gastineau hated his succourer in a wave of
malicious envy; why had not this nobody, this worthy, common-place
young Englishman, dull, probably, and mentally circumscribed, with the
hallmark of Eton plainly showing, why had not this man been shattered,
and he, the brilliant worker, with a name and a place in the world,
have gone scatheless? So bitter was the selfish thought that for a
while he could hardly bring himself to acknowledge the young stranger’s
kindness; all he wanted was to be let alone, to die quickly. But the
other was not to be easily rebuffed; perhaps he made allowance for a
sufferer’s state of mind and temper; anyhow he soon won, by tactful
assiduity, the wounded man’s gratitude, to such a degree, indeed,
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