The Memoirs of a Failure: with an Account of the Man and His Manuscript — John Shaqi
The Memoirs of a Failure: with an Account of the Man and His ManuscriptKittredge, Daniel Wright
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The Memoirs of a Failure: with an Account of the Man and His Manuscript
Kittredge, Daniel Wright
Failure (Psychology) -- Fiction; Harvard University -- Fiction; University of Virginia -- Fiction
“My dear sir,” said he, unbending and stretching his legs, “I like you,
for sometimes we can say things to a stranger which we would not dare
breathe to a life-long friend. Fourteen years ago I was a professor at
a Theological Seminary; I was a lover of beauty, a devout searcher for
truth, as natural and free as I am with you now. (Here he lighted one
of my cigars.) One twilight in April, the Chairman of the Faculty came
to my room, told me that I was the subject of gossip, that my words
shocked the New Englanders, and that I must be more circumspect in my
conduct. His words wounded my frank nature. I went to Boston and got
intoxicated, and sent the Faculty this telegram, saying, “Good-bye,
my colleagues. Your world is not my world. Yours is a world of sham
learning, hypocritical inconsistency between your reason and your
emotions. Good-bye.” Naturally, it was an indiscreet thing to do; but
you can wager that they never published that telegram.”
“I should think not;” I said, smiling.
He knocked the ashes off his cigar and continued:
“Seriously, my friend, it is this theological tinkering that has caused
most of the trouble in this world. Long ago when the world was young,
men wanted to do certain things; so they invented gods and told their
people that it was the gods, not themselves, who wanted these things
done. Then began the tinkering with what was beyond man’s sphere. Then
man began to tinker with elements over which he had no control, with
elements which he was never meant to comprehend. He segregated men and
women apart, and made the distance between them contrary to natural
laws. Instead of allowing Nature to run her beautiful course, he set
up laws out of his own little brain. In order to protect himself as a
selfish egoist, in order to gain power over his fellow men, in order to
be able to own any woman whom he might desire under the guise of divine
right, he had the assurance to say that these laws were God-given,
and that therefore his wilful possession of a woman was a sacrament!
That is what I mean by his tinkering, mental juggling with elemental
truths which he did not understand and had no right to touch. It was
his conceit. His sophistry for physical perversion. Do you know what
‘God-given’ means? I don’t. And I have been trying to find out for
twenty years. And woman, like the silly she has always been, said
it was grand, and acquiesced; while all other animals have, without
man’s arrogance, remained true to their elemental nature, and so are
spared our trials and shortcomings. I am right, I am right, I know I am
right! That is why civilization is a failure, caused by man’s tinkering
with the fundamental, basic operations of the ordinary course of the
perpetuation of the species.”
When the strange professor finished speaking, I confess that I was at a
loss for words, and asked:
“Do you really believe that civilization is a failure?”
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