At daybreak the doctor came in. Taking advantage of the occasion, I
slipped away for a few minutes to my own room, anxious for any change
that would relieve me from the gloom and oppression caused by this
prolonged and silent _tete-a-tete_ with a being that at once so
interested and repelled me. Observing that my windows looked towards
the east, I hastened to throw wide the blinds and lean out into the
open air. A burst of rosy sunlight greeted me. "Ah!" thought I, "if I
have been indulging in visions, this will dispel them"; and I quaffed
deeply and long of the fresh and glowing atmosphere before allowing my
thoughts to return for an instant to the strange and harrowing
experiences I had just been through. A sense of rising courage and
renewed power rewarded me; and blessing the Providence that had granted
us a morning of sunshine after a night of so much horror, I sat down
and drew from my breast the little folded paper which represented my
poor Ada's will. Opening it with all the reverent love which I felt for
her memory, I set myself to decipher the few trembling lines which she
had written, in the hope they would steady my thoughts and suggest, if
not reveal, the way I should take in the more than difficult path I saw
stretching before me.
My agitation may be conceived when I read the following:
"It is my last wish that all my personal effects, together with the sum
of five hundred dollars, now credited to my name in the First National
Bank of S----, should be given to my friend, Constance Sterling, who I
hope will not forget the promise I exacted from her."
Five hundred dollars! and yesterday I had nothing. Ah, yes, I had _a
friend!_
The thoughts awakened by this touching memorial from the innocent dead
distracted me for a few moments from further consideration of present
difficulties, but soon the very nature of the bequest recalled them to
my mind, by that allusion to a promise which more than any thing else
lay at the bottom of the dilemma in which I found myself. For,
humiliating as it is to confess, the persistency with which certain
impressions remained in my mind, in spite of the glowing daylight that
now surrounded me, warned me that it would be for my peace to leave
this house before my presentiments became fearful realities; while on
the other hand my promise to Ada seemed to constrain me to remain in it
till I had at least solved some of those mysteries of emotion which
connected one and all of this family so intimately with the cause to
which I had pledged myself.
"If the general verdict in regard to Mr. Barrows' death should be one
of suicide," thought I, "how could I reconcile myself to the fact that
I fled at the first approaching intimation that all was not as simple
in his relations as was supposed, and that somewhere, somehow, in the
breast of certain parishioners of his, a secret lay hidden, which, if
known, would explain the act which otherwise must imprint an
ineffaceable stain upon his memory?"
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