‘Ailie!’ said Mr. Lothian, looking at her with kind, fatherly eyes. It
was true he was Isabel’s lover, strange even to himself as such a
position was; but in presence of every other woman in the world, he was
a man growing old, a man calm and sobered, fully sensible of his age.
‘Ailie, I have come to ask for you, though it is long since I have seen
you of your own will. You have higher pretensions nowadays; but still
you are one of my flock----’
Ailie lifted upon him her lucid, visionary eyes which were full of a
certain despair. ‘Oh, aye, oh, aye!’ she said; ‘I’m but one of the
flock. I thought I had the Spirit of the Lord. But the oracle’s dumb and
the books are closed. Oh, minister, you’re no a man of light, but I
think in your heart you’re a man of God. If you were required to walk in
a new path, and had nae instruction given to your ain soul, what would
ye do--what would ye do?’
Mr. Lothian was brought to a stand-still by the eagerness in her eyes,
and the pathos in her voice. He was in earnest, it is true, in wishing
her well, and yet in pursuing his own religious way. But he was not in
such deadly earnest as this. It was not a matter of life and death to
him to come to a certain conclusion on any one point that remained to be
considered in life. And in the calm of his age he could scarcely
understand the young creature’s passionate eagerness. He faltered a
little in his answer. ‘Ailie,’ he said, as any other man of his years
would have done, ‘I would consider which was best.’
Ailie, who had been gazing wistfully at him, as if with some new hope,
turned away her head suddenly, throwing up her hands with an expression
of despair. ‘The best!’ she cried; ‘God’s way is aefold, and no many.
His will is one, and has to be done. Oh, ye that think ye can shift and
dally to please Him this way or that way. Am I asking which is best? Can
ye no wake out of your sloth and open the eyes of your spirit and tell
me what’s the will of God?’
She had expected no answer, and indeed turned from him leaning her head
against the portal of the humble door. But the minister felt himself
called upon to speak.
‘Nature is God’s servant as well as you and me,’ he said, ‘and Nature is
speaking against this, Ailie--speaking loud. Whatsoever leads ye from
your natural duties and affection, you may be sure is not the will of
God.’
Ailie raised her head and looked at him, wondering beyond expression to
find herself so admonished. ‘I’ve nae duties but to follow God’s will,’
she said; ‘to follow Him to the end of the earth. Oh, if I could but
open the way of the Lord to you and the like of you. Nature’s but a poor
handmaid of His grace, no a mistress nor a guide. Oh, man, with your
grey head, that should ken what God’s service is, how can you speak of
nature to me?’
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