‘You would say, no,’ said Margaret; ‘but, Isabel, I know best. I am not
vaunting myself, but I know best. For a while past you’ve been that you
did not understand yourself. Your heart has been breaking to part with
me, and yet you could not bear the sight of me. It is wearying to
everybody when a poor creature takes so long to die. Oh, Bell, dinna say
a word! Do you think I doubt you? I’m speaking of nature. And when I’m
gone--so young as you are, and so hasty, and so feeling;--you’ve been a
trouble to yourself and a mystery already, and what will you be then,
with none near you to turn it all over in their minds?’
‘If there’s only me,’ said Isabel, gazing into the vacant air before
her, ‘who will care?’
‘I’ll care wherever I am,’ said Margaret. ‘Oh, you canna think I could
be happy in Heaven and my bonnie Bell in pain or sorrow. If you could
but harden your heart against the movements that come and go--if ye
would but take patience and think before you put your hand to aught. You
were aye so hasty and so innocent. Do you mind when Robbie Spence fell
into the Loch, and her after him in a boat before a man could move?’
‘Ay, do I,’ said Jean, ‘and our ain Jamie when he broke his arm----’
‘It was Isabel that carried him home, that big laddie!’ said Margaret
with pathetic smiles and tears; ‘aye hasty, though she was so young and
so slight; but there’s worse danger than that. Ye might take burdens
upon you that would be harder to carry. Oh, my bonnie Bell! if I could
but have seen you in a good man’s hands!’
‘I’ll not hear you speak,’ cried Isabel, almost wildly; ‘am I wanting
any man?’
‘If you would promise to take thought before you made up your mind,’
said Margaret; ‘I’m no myself when I think of my Isabel in trouble. If
you would go to your room, and take a while to think. I canna tell
what’s beyond the veil, nor what’s permitted _yonder_; but, Bell, I
would aye promise you this--not to _appear_ to be a terror to you. But
if you would take time to think, and shut to your door, and say to
yourself, “Margaret loved me well. She’s been dead and gone for years
and years, but she couldna forget her sister wherever she is. What would
Margaret say if she were here?” And, Bell, I promise you this--not to
frighten you, or appear like one coming from the dead, but to draw near
and let you know what I’m thinking. Always if it is permitted--I canna
tell.’
‘Oh, Margaret! Margaret! I will die too,’ cried Isabel, suddenly
throwing herself at her sister’s feet; ‘I can bear no more.’
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