Along the side of the Down the poppies grow in a scarlet streak—like
blood. They splash the growing corn, and they flower too in the chalky
aridity of the quarry outside the field. They are the brave pennons of
July—gay and blood-red, the colour of life pulsing and triumphant, the
colour of the field’s salvation and the earth’s victory.
* * * * *
James Weller “got salvation,” and in the year 1842 was published at
Robertsbridge in Sussex, a little book called “The Wonders of Free
Grace.” It is the story of Weller’s short life—packed into many halting,
ungrammatical sentences, between dull brown covers, the colour of the
lanes he trod. Yet if things were to appear in their hidden reality that
book would be seen printed and bound in poppy scarlet, for it is written
in blood—the heart’s blood of the “little man of Kent” and the Precious
Blood which redeemed that heart and made it new.
“I was born in sin.” There is something Pauline in the opening phrase,
which, however, means no more than that his parents were “very ignorant
of the power of godliness.” They were poor simple people, the father a
farm labourer earning a lean, uncertain living on the farms round
Headcorn.
Little James was a puny child, terrified with dreams. A frail
constitution and a hard life worked an excitable mind to the edge of
religious mania, though in those days he had learned none of the jargon
of damnation which Calvinism was to teach him later—he was a child of
the Church, which provided for his physical as well as for his spiritual
needs, since his family seem to have “come on the Parish” at a very
early date.
When his father died they were left quite destitute, and the rigorous
old Poor Law “put out” the wretched James to work on various farms. The
spiritual history of those years reads like the blacker parts of “Grace
Abounding”—he was convinced that he had committed the Sin against the
Holy Ghost. Many times he felt urged to take his own life, and he seems
to have been unable to pass a pond or brook or well without
contemplating in it release from the existence which was fast becoming
unbearable. But he lived on, alternating frightful impulses towards
suicide and dreams of a devouring hell, with hopes of release, of
discovery and union—sometimes coming to him through the ministrations of
the various sects in which he sought relief, sometimes in the pages
(opened with ritual casualness) of that Book which, however, often
scattered its comfort with trumpet-blasts of judgment.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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