That same day, in the lower part of the house, he again heard fresh
youthful laughter, a gaiety of grown up girls, filling the sad
habitation with all the racket of a ladies' school in the playground.
He recognised the voices of the little Dauvergnes, but he did not say
a word on the subject to Séverine who absented herself nearly the
entire day, unable to remain with him for five minutes at a time. In
the evening, the house having fallen into deathlike silence, and as
Séverine, looking grave and slightly pale, loitered in his room, he
looked at her fixedly, and remarked inquiringly:
"So he has gone? His sisters have taken him away?"
She briefly answered:
"Yes."
"And we are at last alone, quite alone?" he continued.
"Yes, quite alone," said she. "To-morrow we shall have to quit one
another. I shall return to Havre. We have been camping long enough in
this desert."
He continued looking at her in a smiling but constrained manner, and at
length made up his mind to speak.
"You are sorry he has gone, eh?" he inquired.
And as she started and wished to protest, he interrupted her:
"I am not seeking a quarrel with you," he said. "You know well enough
that I am not jealous. One day you told me to kill you if you were
unfaithful to me, did you not? I do not look like a man who is going
to kill his sweetheart. But really you were always below, it was
impossible to have you to myself for a minute. It recalled to my mind
a remark your husband one day made, that you would be as likely as
not to listen to that young fellow without taking any pleasure in the
experiment, simply to begin something new."
She ceased defending herself, and slowly repeated, twice over:
"To begin something new, to begin something new."
Then, in an outburst of irresistible frankness, she continued:
"Well, listen, what you say is true. We two can tell one another
everything. We are bound closely enough together. This man has pursued
me for months. And, when I found him below, he spoke to me again. He
repeated that he loved me to distraction, and in a manner so thoroughly
imbued with gratitude for the care I had taken of him, with such gentle
tenderness, that, it is true, I for a moment dreamed of loving him
also, of beginning something new, something better, something very
sweet. Yes, something without pleasure perhaps, but which would have
given me calm----"
She paused, and hesitated, before continuing:
"For the road in front of us two," she resumed, "is now barred. We
shall advance no further. Our dream of leaving France, the hope of
wealth and happiness over there in America, all the felicity that
depended on you, is impossible, because you were unable to do the
thing. Oh! I am not making you any reproach! It is better that it
was not done; but I want to make you understand that with you I have
nothing to hope for; to-morrow will be like yesterday, the same
annoyances, the same torments."
He allowed her to speak, and only questioned her when he saw her silent.
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