I had not very much to say. It was a record of hard work and of little
adventure; of experiments in this direction and in that; of the gradual
acquisition of the knowledge of books and of men. I took care to ask
Strickland nothing about his own doings. I showed not the least
interest in him, and at last I was rewarded. He began to talk of
himself. But with his poor gift of expression he gave but indications
of what he had gone through, and I had to fill up the gaps with my own
imagination. It was tantalising to get no more than hints into a
character that interested me so much. It was like making one’s way
through a mutilated manuscript. I received the impression of a life
which was a bitter struggle against every sort of difficulty; but I
realised that much which would have seemed horrible to most people did
not in the least affect him. Strickland was distinguished from most
Englishmen by his perfect indifference to comfort; it did not irk him
to live always in one shabby room; he had no need to be surrounded by
beautiful things. I do not suppose he had ever noticed how dingy was
the paper on the wall of the room in which on my first visit I found
him. He did not want arm-chairs to sit in; he really felt more at his
ease on a kitchen chair. He ate with appetite, but was indifferent to
what he ate; to him it was only food that he devoured to still the
pangs of hunger; and when no food was to be had he seemed capable of
doing without. I learned that for six months he had lived on a loaf of
bread and a bottle of milk a day. He was a sensual man, and yet was
indifferent to sensual things. He looked upon privation as no hardship.
There was something impressive in the manner in which he lived a life
wholly of the spirit.
When the small sum of money which he brought with him from London came
to an end he suffered from no dismay. He sold no pictures; I think he
made little attempt to sell any; he set about finding some way to make
a bit of money. He told me with grim humour of the time he had spent
acting as guide to Cockneys who wanted to see the night side of life in
Paris; it was an occupation that appealed to his sardonic temper and
somehow or other he had acquired a wide acquaintance with the more
disreputable quarters of the city. He told me of the long hours he
spent walking about the Boulevard de la Madeleine on the look-out for
Englishmen, preferably the worse for liquor, who desired to see things
which the law forbade. When in luck he was able to make a tidy sum; but
the shabbiness of his clothes at last frightened the sight-seers, and
he could not find people adventurous enough to trust themselves to him.
Then he happened on a job to translate the advertisements of patent
medicines which were sent broadcast to the medical profession in
England. During a strike he had been employed as a house-painter.
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