He bore himself most unbecomingly. Knowing at what time his wife did
her shopping, one day, unable any longer to bear not seeing her, he
waylaid her in the street. She would not speak to him, but he insisted
on speaking to her. He spluttered out words of apology for any wrong he
had committed towards her; he told her he loved her devotedly and
begged her to return to him. She would not answer; she walked
hurriedly, with averted face. I imagined him with his fat little legs
trying to keep up with her. Panting a little in his haste, he told her
how miserable he was; he besought her to have mercy on him; he
promised, if she would forgive him, to do everything she wanted. He
offered to take her for a journey. He told her that Strickland would
soon tire of her. When he repeated to me the whole sordid little scene
I was outraged. He had shown neither sense nor dignity. He had omitted
nothing that could make his wife despise him. There is no cruelty
greater than a woman’s to a man who loves her and whom she does not
love; she has no kindness then, no tolerance even, she has only an
insane irritation. Blanche Stroeve stopped suddenly, and as hard as she
could slapped her husband’s face. She took advantage of his confusion
to escape, and ran up the stairs to the studio. No word had passed her
lips.
When he told me this he put his hand to his cheek as though he still
felt the smart of the blow, and in his eyes was a pain that was
heartrending and an amazement that was ludicrous. He looked like an
overblown schoolboy, and though I felt so sorry for him, I could hardly
help laughing.
Then he took to walking along the street which she must pass through to
get to the shops, and he would stand at the corner, on the other side,
as she went along. He dared not speak to her again, but sought to put
into his round eyes the appeal that was in his heart. I suppose he had
some idea that the sight of his misery would touch her. She never made
the smallest sign that she saw him. She never even changed the hour of
her errands or sought an alternative route. I have an idea that there
was some cruelty in her indifference. Perhaps she got enjoyment out of
the torture she inflicted. I wondered why she hated him so much.
I begged Stroeve to behave more wisely. His want of spirit was
exasperating.
“You’re doing no good at all by going on like this,” I said. “I think
you’d have been wiser if you’d hit her over the head with a stick. She
wouldn’t have despised you as she does now.”
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