He smiled indulgently.
"That's putting it rather strong, isn't it?" he said, making a long arm
and pulling her down on to his knee.
She sprang up again instantly and stood a little away from him, her
hands clenched, her breast heaving tumultuously.
"Come back, small firebrand!" he commanded laughingly.
A fresh gust of indignation, swept over her. Even now he didn't
comprehend, didn't realise in the very least how he had wounded her.
Her nails dug into the flesh of her palms as she took a fresh grip of
herself and answered him--very slowly and distinctly so that he might
not miss her meaning.
"It's not putting it one bit too strong. It's what I feel--that I
can't ever play to you again." She paused, then burst out impetuously:
"You've always disliked my love of music! You were jealous of it. And
to-night I wanted to show you--to--to share it with you. You hated the
piano--you wanted to smash it, because you thought it came between us.
And so I tried to make you understand!" Her words came rushing out
headlong now, bitter, sobbing words, holding all the agony of mind
which she had been enduring for so long.
"You've no idea what music means to me--and you've not tried to find
out. Instead, you've laughed indulgently about it, been impatient over
it, and behaved as though it were some child's toy of which you didn't
quite approve." Her voice shook. "And it isn't! It's _part_ of
me--part of the woman you want to marry . . ."
She broke off, a little breathlessly.
Roger was on his feet now and there was a deep, smouldering anger in
his eyes as he regarded her.
"And is all this outburst because I fell asleep while you were
playing?" he asked curtly.
She was silent, battling with the emotion that was shaking her.
"Because"--he went on with a tinge of contempt in his voice--"if so,
it's a ridiculous storm in a tea-cup."
"'Ridiculous'! . . . Yes, that's all it would be to you," she answered
bitterly. "But to me it's just like a light flashed on our future life
together. We're miles apart--miles! We haven't a thought, an idea, in
common. And when it comes to music--to the one big thing in my
life--you brush it aside as if it could be taken up or put down like a
child's musical box!"
Roger looked at her. Something of her passionate pain and resentment
was becoming clear to him.
"I didn't know it meant as much to you as that," he said slowly.
"It's everything to me now!" she burst out wildly. "The only thing I
have left--left of my world as I knew it."
His face whitened, and a curious, strained brilliance came into his
eyes. She had touched him an the raw, roused his mad jealousy of all
that had been in her life of which, he had had no share.
"The only thing you have left?" he repeated, with a slow, dangerous
inflection in his voice. "Do you mean that?"
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