Immortality -- Fiction; Science fiction; Short stories
I was confused when MacDowell brought back my wandering mind by saying,
“I can release Celeste from the mordant--that will be easy. But will
she wish to be released? Her associates will leave her if she is kept
beneath the influence of the mordant. Unreleased, she will be as
forlorn as last year’s rose left blooming in a winter garden. Can she
forego beauty and youth? She feeds upon her power.”
“You could release her without her being aware,” I counselled. “That
would be a kindly thing to do.” I felt almost fatherly toward Celeste
now, I who had been twenty when she was thirty and I who was fifty when
she was still thirty--at least in the record of her years as placed
upon her face.
“I doubt it. In fact, I believe that it would be the sheerest cruelty
to give her over to the power of the years. I do not know what ravages
might suddenly take place after the removal of the mordant. Celeste
might suddenly become old in looks. Remember, she is fifty. To place a
woman who looks thirty in a position where she would suddenly take on
the lines and sagging muscles of half a century would not be advisable.
“It would mean that she could not grow through twenty years of
time to a place where she might accustom herself to a change both
professionally and actually. If Celeste asks for the release I shall
give it to her. If not, she shall remain fair to look upon when you and
I are withered husks.”
“Can she die?” I breathed sharply. The thought of eternal life had once
seemed sweet to me. But sorrow had made her home on my doorstep. Life
perpetual no longer seemed desirable. And life with a stunted spirit a
damnable, awful thing.
“Most assuredly she can die,” he stated. “Even as you and I. But the
body will remain intact.”
Celeste did not care to let the mordant release its power over her.
Occasionally I saw her--occasionally I heard her sing. Beautiful as
ever--her voice fresh with an eternal touch of spring--not of the
present spring, but of past and remembered springs.
“I do not wish the power to go,” she sighed. “I could not bear to watch
my flesh shrivel as I gazed into a mirror.” Her eyes dilated with a
wild terror. It was as though she envisioned such a process tearing her
glory from her.
“Not that I should mind so much being dead.” There was something almost
childlike about her, pleading, terrified. “It seems to me that only
in non-existence can I find peace.” She leaned toward me with a soft
confiding. We had grown to be friends because of the secret of which we
were a part. “Sometimes I grow extraordinarily weary of it all.”
I shuddered to myself, for I was fifty at the time--she was sixty.
The thought of supporting an ecstatic youth in the fact of remembered
trouble had little lure for me.
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