"She's a liar," said the woman, composedly, without resentment. "We'll
cut the _planting_ out of _this_ funeral." Her ingenuity, her
resourcefulness, her daring, when the happiness of her child was
concerned, were usually sufficient to the emergency. "Why, darling!"
she exclaimed. "Your father will be taken right up into the sky. He
won't be put in no grave. He'll go right straight to a place where
it's all sunshine--where it's all blue and high and as bright as day."
She bustled about: keeping an eye alert for the effect of her promises.
She was not yet sure how this glorious ascension might be managed; but
she had never failed to deceive him to his own contentment, and 'twas
not her habit to take fainthearted measures. "They been lying to you,
dear," she complained. "Don't you fret about graves. You just wait,"
she concluded, significantly, "and see!"
The boy sighed.
"Poddle and me," she added, with a wag of the head to convince him,
"will show you where your father goes."
"I wish," the boy said, wistfully, "that he wasn't dead."
"Don't you do it!" she flashed. "It don't make no difference to him.
It's a good thing. I bet he's glad to be dead."
The boy shook his head.
"Yes, he is! Don't you think he isn't. There ain't nothing like being
dead. Everybody's happy--when they're dead."
"He's so still!" the boy whispered.
"It feels fine to be still--like that."
"And he's so cold!"
"No!" she scorned. "He don't feel cold. You think he's cold. But he
ain't. That's just what you _think_. He's comfortable. He's glad to
be dead. Everybody's glad to be dead."
The boy shuddered.
"Don't you do that no more!" said the woman. "It don't hurt to be
dead. Honest, it don't! It feels real good to be that way."
"I--I--I don't think I'd like--to be dead!"
"You don't have to if you don't want to," the woman replied, thrown
into a confusion of pain and alarm. To comfort him, to shield him from
agony, to keep the shadow of fear from falling upon him: she desired
nothing more; and she was content to succeed if but for the moment. "I
tell you," she continued, "you never will be dead--if you don't want
to. Your father wanted to be dead. 'I think, Millie,' says he, 'I'd
like to be dead.' 'All right, Dick,' says I. 'If you want to, I won't
stand in your way. But I don't know about the boy.' 'Oh,' says he,
'the boy won't stand in my way.' 'I guess that's right, Dick,' says I,
'for the boy loves you.' And so," she concluded, "he died. But _you_
don't have to die. You'll never die--not unless you want to." She
kissed him. "Don't you be afraid, dear!" she crooned.
"I'm not--afraid."
"Well, then," she asked, puzzled, "what _are_ you?"
"I don't know," he faltered. "I think it makes me--sick at
the--stomach."
He had turned white. She took him in her arms, to comfort and hearten
him--an unfailing device: her kisses, her warm, ample bosom, her close
embrace; he was by these always consoled....
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