China -- Fiction; Communism -- Fiction; Women peasants -- Fiction
But he was gone. Although she ran into the gate and peered through the
flickering lights that fell from open shops, she could not see him. She
was ashamed to run further into the town and look at this man’s face
and that in the dim light, and so she stood, uncertain and ashamed,
until the soldiers who guarded the city gate called out in impatience,
“Goodwife, if you are going out this gate tonight go you must because
the hour is come when we must close it fast against the communists,
those new robbers we have these days.”
She went her way then once more and crossed the little hill and down
into the valley, and after a while she thrust the trinkets in her
bosom. The moon rose huge and cold and glittering as soon as the sun
was set, and when she came home the children were in their bed, and
the old grandmother asleep. Only the lad lay still awake and he cried
when his mother came, “I was afraid for you, my mother, and I would
have come to find you, only I was afraid to leave the children and my
grandmother.”
But she could not even smile at his so calling the other two children
as though he were a man beside them. She answered, “Aye, here I be, at
last, and very weary somehow,” and she went and fetched a little food
and ate it cold, and all the time the trinkets lay in her bosom.
When she had eaten she glanced toward the bed and by the candlelight
she saw the lad slept too, and so she fastened the curtains and then
she sat down beside the table and took the little packet from her
breast and opened the soft paper which enwrapped it. There the rings
lay, glittering and white, and the earrings were beautiful. Upon each
were fastened three small fine chains, and at the end of each chain
hung a little toy. She took them in her hard fingers and looked closely
and upon one chain hung a tiny fish and upon the second a little bell
and upon the third a little pointed star, all daintily and cleverly
made and pleasing to any woman. She had never held such pretty things
before in her hard brown palm. She sat and looked at them a while and
sighed and wrapped them up again, not knowing what to do with them, or
how to give them back to that man.
But when she had crept under the quilt with the children she could not
sleep. Although her body was cold with the damp chill of the night her
cheeks were burning hot and she could not sleep for a long time and
then at last but lightly. And partly she dreamed of some strange thing
shining, and partly she dreamed of a man’s hot hand upon her.
X
She did not see the man again through the whole spring, although she
remembered him. She did not see him until a day in the early summer,
when the wheat was turning faintly gold, and she had sown her rice in
beds for seedlings, and it was sprouted new and green and set in small
blocks of jade near the house where it could be well watched by the old
grandmother against the greedy birds that loved its tenderness. And all
this time her heart lay in her hot and fallow.
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