Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Riviera (France) -- Fiction
At the question he sprang up out of his armchair with the headlong
haste of a young man. The movement upset a little table at his elbow;
but he let the table lie.
“By God, yes!” he shouted, reaching out to her with both hands.
She shrank back a little, not from reluctance but from a sense of
paralyzing inadequacy. “It’s I who am old now,” she thought with a
shiver.
“What--you really would come with me? The day after tomorrow?” she said.
“I’d come with you today, if there was enough of it left to get us
anywhere.” He stood looking at her, waiting for her to speak; then, as
she remained silent, he slowly drew back a step or two. “Kate--this
isn’t one of your jokes?”
As she returned his look she was aware that her sight of him was
becoming faintly blurred. “Perhaps it was, when I began. It isn’t now.”
She put her hands in his.
XXVIII.
In the stillness of the sleeping house she sat up with a start, plucked
out of a tormented sleep.
“But it can’t be--it can’t be--it can’t be!”
She jumped out of bed, turned on the light, and stared about her. What
secret warning had waked her with that cry on her lips? She could
not recall having dreamed: she had only tossed and fought with some
impalpable oppression. And now, as she stood there, in that hideously
familiar room, the silence went on echoing with her cry. All the
excuses, accommodations, mitigations, mufflings, disguisings, had
dropped away from the bare fact that her lover was going to marry her
daughter, and that nothing she could do would prevent it.
A few hours ago she had still counted on the blessed interval of time,
the lulling possibilities of delay. She had kissed Anne goodnight
very quietly, she remembered. Then it was eleven o’clock of the night
before; now it was the morning of the day. A pitch-black winter
morning: there would be no daylight for another three hours. No
daylight--but the Day was here!
She glanced at the clock. Half-past four. The longing seized her to go
and look at Anne for the last time; but the next moment she felt that
hardly a sight in the world would be less bearable.
She turned back into her room, wrapped herself in her dressing-gown,
and went and sat in the window.
What did Fifth Avenue look like nowadays at half-past four o’clock of a
winter morning? Much as it had when she had kept the same vigil nearly
twenty years earlier, on the morning of her flight with Hylton Davies.
That night too she had not slept, and for the same reason: the thought
of Anne. On that other day she had deserted her daughter for the first
time--and now it seemed as though she were deserting her again. One
betrayal of trust had led inexorably to the other.
Fifth Avenue was much more brilliantly lit than on that other far-off
morning. Long streamers of radiance floated on the glittering asphalt
like tropical sea-weeds on a leaden sea. But overhead the canopy of
darkness was as dense, except for the tall lights hanging it here and
there with a planetary glory.
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